by Luc » Sun Jan 16, 2005 12:48 pm
adolesense. well one big thing for me was control. and how that can effect things.
drugs, fights, and one that really got me frienten i guess. teen pregnecy.
know that my girlfriend was pregnent was, not a shock, it was.. well i cant really put it in one word. it was different things. i was happy, i mean. wow im going to be a dad. plus its with someone i truely love. but at the same time i kept thinking, are we really ready? i mean we're both still young and have school and life ahead of us. is children really ok right now. and then thinking of the child itself. would it be ok for him/her growing up in the enviorment we set for the child. i wanted to have the kid, but when things looked ok. finicially, and mentally. maybe mentally i was fit for the job of dad. but not finicially. or perhaps the other way around. different thoughts. and i was really stuck. didnt know which way to go. though, turns out it was false alarm. but still. i was in a sense disappointed. like i said i would of liked to be a father. but then, not happy, releeved?
as for drugs, well, its hard to say no. espcially when you have no friends and are desperate to make some, even with the wrong crowd. though i have to admit. of all the drug addicts and stuff i've seen, most of the ppl in the wrong crowd are just like me. alone, depressed, feeling left out. so forth and so on. frankly, in my eyes, they are not a "wrong crowd". but then again, maybe im just saying that because i was in it. i dont know. and its because i went into the wrong crowd, that led me to happyness now. no not the drugs. but meeting someone. and in doing so, i left loneliness and drugs behide. she is my drug. and i love it.
"The error of youth is to believe that intelligence is a substitute for experience, while the error of age is to believe experience is a substitute for intelligence." - Lyman Bryson