Just Stupidity
Posted: Wed Apr 21, 2004 4:28 pmHappiness- Smiles. The ones that Brooke knows are because of him. Because I saw him the other night. Or because I talked to him...or because he held me...or kissed me. I can't smile without thinking of him.
Sadness- Tears. The ones everyone knows I cried because of him. The ones that burned my pillow and ruined my phone.
Stupidity- One of the few things he's given me. I've turned into a fool. One who doesn't care that there's been pain and probably will be more. One who doesn't care if the words he says as promises aren't kept. One who looks at him and ignores everything bad..only seeing the good....the great.
The obvious- That would be to forget about him. I've always ignored the obvious though.
What does this all mean with him? That the tears aren't that big of a deal to me, that i can't smile without thinking of him, that i allow myself to be stupid...i really am a smart girl, not with him though.
Thankgod I'm moving. Although he's asked me to stay with him. I won't though....that would be more than stupid.
Sadness- Tears. The ones everyone knows I cried because of him. The ones that burned my pillow and ruined my phone.
Stupidity- One of the few things he's given me. I've turned into a fool. One who doesn't care that there's been pain and probably will be more. One who doesn't care if the words he says as promises aren't kept. One who looks at him and ignores everything bad..only seeing the good....the great.
The obvious- That would be to forget about him. I've always ignored the obvious though.
What does this all mean with him? That the tears aren't that big of a deal to me, that i can't smile without thinking of him, that i allow myself to be stupid...i really am a smart girl, not with him though.
Thankgod I'm moving. Although he's asked me to stay with him. I won't though....that would be more than stupid.