by Leah06 » Sat Jun 02, 2007 11:19 pm
Hey dreamer family. Its me with an update. So im back from my first year at college, and to be honest, it sucked. I was diagnosed with Hypothyroidism and ever since then, ive been having a rough time. With the Hypothyroidism came depression, which sucks because im usually this outgoing, happy, energetic person, and now im just tierd, quiet, no want to do much but sleep. It sucks, for lack of a better phrase. I no longer have a major, i was a psychology major but now im undeclared. It just seems so hard to just all of a sudden decide what i want to do with the rest of my life. Its frustrating, i have all thease ideas of things i love, but something seems to be missing from each one, and my friends already know exactly what they want, how to get it, and where they are going to be in 5 or 10 years. And all i can say is "I dont know". Seems to be my most commonly used phrase right now. SO because im so sick (with the hypothyroid) i was instructed not to go back up to college, and i should stay close to home at a community college instead up at a university 6 1/2 hours away. So thats what im doing, untill the spring where im transfuring to a different school down in sothern california. (hopefully) Other than that, i might be getting surgery, if i decide its what i want... and again... i dont know. Its not that i dont want to feel better, its the whole i could die from the surgery part. And i would much rather die later on from being sick, than in surgery.
Scott and I broke up, he went home to texas and i went home in central california. Long distance sucks, and we both felt it would be better for us to just be friends in the event that he gets ordered to go into iraq. Were still close and talk every day, hes going to come visit me in july.
My little sister is graduating highschool on the 15th. Shes actually at her Senior Ball right now, she looks amazing and im so glad im home to be with her when shes going through her last few weeks of highschool. With graduation comes grad parties and my dad flying in from wisconsin. not so sure how i feel about that, he is hard to talk to concidering he was never around when i was a kid.. change that hes never around at all. I havent talked to him since christmas. its akward but im happy to see him.
Im out of work for awhile, i tore a ligament in my wrist and you cant really be a waitress with only one arm/hand. But i still love my job, and im glad im staying mainly because of my job.
That is about it for me, i miss you all and havent really gotten the chance to write much being sick and all so i hope to get back into that. I hope all of you are doing well, and i deffinitly hope to hear from you soon! Best wishes.
Leah
What you do with your life is only half of the equation, the other half, the more important half, is who you're with when you're doing it.