Badly she wants to slit her wrists
And watch the blood trickle down to her fist
Badly the voices urge her to
But she knows its wrong to do
She sits on the floor and back and forth she rocks
And turns the key until the door locks
She cries and cries until she can no longer see
And looks in the mirror “Why me?”
She cannot stand the pain inside
And her parents can’t see that it hides
She feels her parents are so unfair
And they cannot see the hurt that’s there
Tears roll down her face as she cries
And she wishes deeply she could die
This urge inside is way too strong
Although she knows it is wrong
She badly wants to cut her arms
If she were too quiet, her mother would be alarmed.
She thought she could trust her dad
And all the answers she thought he had
But he had broken her heart
And in bloody pieces, it was torn apart
She lies on the floor wondering “why?”
And she wonders if her life was a lie
She wonders if the things her father said were true
All these answers she wish she knew
This pain inside starts to get worse
She wonders if this is her curse
Her life gets harder every day
She wants the happy times to replay
Where she would laugh, not cry
Where she had never wished that she’d die
But she realizes that she never will
And this dream won’t ever fulfill
So she cuts and watches her blood flow
And her pain might start to leave her go
When she dies, she’s gone forever
Her parents wont have to put up with her, ever
They’ll be glad that she’s dead
And they’ll forget everything she’s said
She feels her parents do not care
And her fathers never there
Her mother would always scream
She can hear it, even in her dreams
They think their daughter’s messed up in her head
And they probably wish that they had fled
She can’t tell if they love her or not
And that makes her heart and soul rot
She wishes she went through with her suicide
And she thought in her father she could confide
She realizes her mistakes and that she was wrong
Will they miss her if she’s gone
She’s still a little girl and she’s in pain+
And she wishes the cutting would refrain
But it won’t because she’s addicted
She tries to escape the pain she’s inflicted
She cries at night
Wishing her mom would hug her tight
She loves her mom no matter what
Even when she found out she cut
Her mom had understood
If she could go back to then she would
It’s probably a lot better than here
Where her world is full of fear
Her father made her laugh and smile
And even had her giggling for a while
But now he is never around
Around long enough to make a sound
Because of the poetry that she writes
With her mom and dad she fights
She cuts deeper and things start to fade
By the window is where she lays
She quickly dies
Escaping the lies
Escaping the misery and the pain
Not of that pain still remains
She’s now gone forever
No one misses her, ever
The pain would never let her be
So you know, that girl is me

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