Rhythm Of The Tears by Britney

I just sit there wanting to die... but instead all I do is cry
Sometimes these thoughts go threw my mind thoughts
that I despise but then again the thoughts that are constantly
on my worthless mind.

I wanna scream and shout punch the wall tear anything
in my way apart.. I swear anything you do seems to spark
me but you never realize it. I wish you could just see
the pain you give me but that pain just seems to please
you.

Maybe thats why I'm dying inside yet I never took the time
to realize. Sometimes I feel like taking something sharp to
my skin and letting the pretty red start to flow... but I always
tend to stop myself and say no...

I wonder why i don't smile I wonder why I don't laugh if
I start thinking about smiling or laughing..... those are
just flashbacks.... drip drip drip it's like a repeating rhythm
from my teary eyes....

I sit in the corner all alone going back again to my suicidal
thoughts.....then i start thinking and thinking my sobbing gets
harder... then I'm thinking which should be the one i shall die
with the knife the gun?

I start thinking about my body in this puddle full of blood
then this real smile on my face becomes... still the rhythm
of my sobs are going on and on

Then I have the gun to my head... ready and everything to die
then at that exact moment I'm telling myself I'm really not
ready to die... so i put it down.....

I wake up to another horror dream....wow how the
rhythm of the tears flow down my eyes....even though
I wake up they are really flowing from my eyes...

I close my eyes go back to sleep

Rhythm of the tears flowing from my eyes

not true... about the sucidal thought and stuff.... just liked this poem i made... enjoy Britney

Angel in Tears (86.135.94.202) -- Tuesday, June 28 2005, 09:06 am

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Brit,glad to be reading more of your work again!Like this read a lot!

Britney (67.136.109.253) -- Tuesday, June 28 2005, 05:36 pm

Hey Angel
Yeah i'm gld to be writing! Glad to know you liked this one... means alot! thanks a ton.

snogrl (4.255.74.108) -- Saturday, November 11 2006, 05:00 am

sucidal thoughts
way to deep for meee!!

britney (24.121.42.133) -- Wednesday, December 20 2006, 10:01 pm

welll
thanks dont give up on life keep livin

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