An undetected weight pressing upon my chest.
I sleep away the day and night, and still, I obtain no rest.
Invisible knife slicing though my heart.
Incisions so slow, peeling it apart.
Acidic tears coursing down my cheeks.
Excruciating pain week after week.
Numbness settles in, and then leaves me too soon.
The darkness sets in and surrounds me in gloom.
Call it what you like, sickness, plague, disease.
The purging cleanses and puts my soul at ease.
No sense of direction, wariness within.
Each betrayal, each disappointment, prompts my own sins.
Eternal emptiness then overwhelming pain.
I live my life wildly now, nothing to lose or gain.
Guilty pleasures and erotic nights.
Giving into these sins feels too right.
False emotion shown without, devastating numbness hidden.
Indulgence in the fruit that has forever been forbidden.
Happiness is around the corner, but for now I revel in my part.
Embracing the darker side, will extinguish the scars of my heart.

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