today i felt the sun upon my shoulders. The suddenly the sun hid behind the clouds and rain fell upon my head. I began to weep, fell to my feet. The pain was to much my heart was crushed. I cried for hours, upon that dirt road. The tears that fell, I couldn't say they were for you? Perhaps for myself. Today I awoke, not myself anymore. Not a scared little child playing games, not a scared little child writing poems about depression and cutting. The sun came out and I realized who I was. When I said I didn't belive in my lord, I knew I was wrong. He was there for me when you were not. I would like forgiveness, for all those that I have hurt. I would like forgiveness from myself for hurting my own. I want to wake up in the morning and smile because that's who I want to be. I'm glad I went on to find myself and who I really was. Thank-you my lord, and my family, and a tribute to all those who have helped along the way. I have finally discovered who I am, and I can smile about that.

finally the sun has shone upon my face once more, and welcome back to happiness.