As a child my arms were never crossed,
so why was my hugs and kisses lost?
Was I so naughty that these things I didn't deserve?
Did my silent obedience get on their last nerve?

Should I have screamed why don't you love me?
But the truth is I did silently.
Not wanting to make a fuss I kept my pain hidden,
along with my disappointment of being forbidden.

To be loved as that wasn't the way,
but still in my heart I dreamt of the day.
She'd hold me just like I'd seen other mams do,
not push me away and not give me a clue.

As to what was so wrong that I did,
to make her want to hurt her kid?
Breaking my heart as I lay so still,
confused and hurt as I lost all will.

Retreating back to my lonely shell,
where no one could reach me and all was well.
Seeing the world from in the shade,
questioning why their love for me had to fade?

Twenty years on and still I seek,
the part of me that's not so weak.
Now and again it comes into sight,
but it seems I'm MISSING IT TONIGHT!!!

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