I'm sorry that I'm nervous when faced with awkward situations.
I'm sorry that I can't hug people even on special occasions.
I'm sorry that I sometimes go quiet and don't say that much.
I'm sorry that when asked a personal question, all I do is blush.

What do you want an apology for me being me?
Is it really my fault you disapprove of who I strive to be?
Is it such a bad thing to have this many flaws?
Is that the reason why on me people close their doors?

Well, my apologies that I'm not who you think I should be.
I'm so sorry for trying to introduce you to me.
I deeply regret thinking you'd both understand.
Why my life hasn't turned out the way you's had planned.

Acceptance, by you two is what I'd call the key.
The day you's accept me for me.
Nobody's perfect, but that's not the way yous see.
Why can't I just be who I want to be?

Why must you judge, ridicule and mock?
And make your daughter feel as though she's in the dock?
What would it take to be classed as okay?
Coz maybe then I'd see a much brighter day?

I'm sorry I can't say I love you but there words I've never heard.
I'm sorry that all I'm good for is getting the degree in third.
I'm sorry if I hurt but you hurt me too.
I'm sorry I couldn't do what you wanted me to do.

But for the rest of my life am I to be judged?
To be given a false love that I know is begrudged?
Or is it as you'd put it all in my imagination?
When I question your love for me all I get is frustration.

Well, forgive me your honour that I am what I am.
Have mercy your grace that I'm nothing like my dad or mam.
I never realised it was a crime your own person to be.
Most humble apologies that the light I didn't see.

It is due to yous that I hide my feelings and cares.
It is your fault I'm afraid to tell others I'll be there.
It's only tonight that I've came to realise all this.
That for so many years all you've done is took the p1ss.

Do I really deserve to experience all this hurt?
Where the hell do yous get off treating me like dirt?
There yous are smiling and a beaming.
Whilst deep inside of me I am silently screaming.

Now that I'm lost and just long to be found.
Why on the barrier of love did you both stand your ground?
Why couldn't you stop saying a better person you could be?
Because maybe then someone would be able to LOVE ME?!?

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