My Own Way Out by Devilyangelic

Screwed up is the way I feel inside.
Can't release all the things that I hide.
Want to break down but fear of being judged.
Dying to reach out for love but know it'll be begrudged.

Desperated to be heard but fear no one will hear my cry.
Just want to wipe away my smile and stop living a lie.
Don't know what the answer or what I am to do?
To stop looking in the mirror and thinking I hate you.

Yearning to hear that I'm going to be okay.
But I'm left to feel like this day after day.
Learning to accept that I should just keep schtum.
As I admit to myself no help is going to come.

Struggling to get myself through each and every day.
People all around me but I just can't find my way.
Pain to my left and rejection to my right.
Tears on my cheek as I sit alone tonight.

Smashed inside and not half the person I once knew.
Can't help but wonder if any of what she said was true?
Cracks in my heart and lumps in my throat.
As in my tired mind spins thought after thought.

Lonely with nothing except pain and my fears.
My heart slowly breaking as my face fills with tears.
Snared in this prison as I begin to doubt.
Whether I'll ever be able to find MY OWN WAY OUT?!?

Britney (67.136.113.123) -- Sunday, September 11 2005, 06:01 am

wow
hey this poem was really good and its just awesome keep ur head up...:)

devilyangelic (82.39.18.115) -- Sunday, September 18 2005, 08:44 pm

thanx hun
hey just wanted to say thanx for taking the time to read one of my pieces this is canny (quite) old suffice to say a came thru that time in ma life but nice to know that you's lovely people here at poetic dreams like ma work so thankyou hun please do take care hugs n smiles devilyangelic

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