One more time i think.
But no. I promise i quit.
But one cut too many and the blade too deep.
Im lying on the floor
Helpless, i cry out.
no one hears.
Or they do, but they dont want to.
It's hurting i cry, i can stand it no more.
The pain soon leaves but the scars are still there.
Stained with blood.
A few days pass and all is well
But, one bad day and it all comes out.
With blood coming down.
Go away i scream.
I need you NO more.
Your messing me up.
I was fine before you came.
It never leaves.
ALWAYS there.
Why dont you leave me ALONE.
I wish you would.
But it doesnt, the scars remain.
I get angry and go over them again.
Making them worse.
Soon the cuts get deeper and deeper
I cant control it any longer.
Ive given myself over to this blade before I know it.
Im gone on the floor
no one notices.
deeper i fall.
into this great sleep.
until im completely gone.
Waking up slightly to say goodbye.
Ive cut too deep this time, i say.
Deeper. i go....
wanting to leave you.
why,just let me please.
deeper i fall in love with this blade.
by now its my only friend.
Falling mroe often into these deep sleeps waking up in places i dont know.
i dont want this to happen.
i cant go deeper i say.
but what will happen

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