I somehow can't be happy with the choices I make
I can't be content with the roads I've decided to take
I don't know how much more my heart can break
How much more of my life can be put at stake?
I keep looking for happiness where there's none
engagement ring, college degree, a job
or a night out having fun
I keep dreaming of these things
like they'll make my life okay
Like once one is in my grasp
then my problems go away
Realization sets in too late
All the mistakes, I just can't contemplate
This is my fate
I just have to wait
Minutes and hours go by before I know it
Days, then weeks turn into years
And that time, my fate, has gone by before I've
even begun to dry my tears
Another lap around this vicious circle
I'm at that starting point again
I've bypassed the finish line and
I'm back to where I've been
Discouragement, hopelessness & failure
have dragged me down once more
Now it will be twice as hard to pick
myself up from the floor
But I have to believe and I have
to have faith that this torture in my life will end
and that happiness will find it's way back
into my heart again.

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