What I Hold Inside
20 April, 2006
Author: Taylor James
He tried to help me
but i pushed him away
like i do to everyone
each and every day.
my feelings to strong to show
so i hide my emotions
to make them die so they don’t know,
im trapped in a room with boxes all around
i think, no, i know they hold what i feel inside
so i need to crunch them down to hide
no one needs to know how i feel
there only for me to realize
just how bad i am inside.
shutting off is my only way of coping
its the only way i can go on hoping
so i can stay alive another day.
my sub-conscience has two parts
one wants to hide
he doesnt want the other to have a say,
the other wants to speak out loud
to say what needs to be said
but hes being suffocated
so theres no reason to recognize the pain.
i can go to a place thats full of peace
its always silent and full of grace
it smells of vanilla all around
and there is no-one walking the grounds
out side it smells so crisp
but only when the fresh air hits
the grass so green
and the trees with the yellow and red leaves.
then i come back
to this place so bad
makes me want to go back
to this dream i have.
the memories so painful
i cry when they come
all this pain is making me feel so glum.
this man tried to help
but i couldn’t handle the pain
so my sub-conscience came out to stop the shame
it just wants everything to stay the same.
so here i am my soul naked upon the floor
not knowing what to do
not knowing what to expect
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Comments on this poem/writing:
| Mike (62.31.46.17) -- Friday, April 21 2006, 12:43 pm Bloody hell. I love this one. It's amazing. You;re getting better at this all the time ;) Keep at it. |
| Kay (65.1.88.59) -- Sunday, April 23 2006, 03:02 am this is a really great poem you're words are so strong. Keep It Up!!! |
| Davey Boy (216.54.14.84) -- Friday, April 28 2006, 04:28 pm This sh*t is amazing. I wish i could write like that. |
| patricia (69.154.214.152) -- Sunday, April 30 2006, 01:48 am ur great i can feel what u r saying |
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