Aside
4 August, 2006
Author: Sicklust
he makes me
less of a woman
i'm waiting for him
to act stupid
so that i can leave
and do what i want
i will leave him
eventually
because i think
that i do not deserve happiness
and going to others
will provide zero happiness
and this hurts
more than anyone
can comprehend
and they won't be able to understand
because i don't even understand
there are no choices
there are no goodbyes
i can't stay
eventually i will leave
like i always do
but in my perfect world
he would forgive me
for all i have done
and you can't really tell
from the expressions on my face
how far i have come
how much i have endured
from a broken past
a broken family
a ruthless father
from the surroundings
that i call
my home
you can't really tell
how heavy but carefully applied makeup
supply me with
consistent identities
to conceal how sick
i really am
and perhaps
you won't really be able to tell
that i will leave him
because from far away
we almost look
like a kodak photo.
------- Author's Notes -------
I just couldn't keep us together, I couldn't bind us forever, the way I promised him. |
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