Insomniac by Catyrose

Blood shot eyes stare at the clock on the bedside table
Two a.m. then three
All I desire is one sound night of sleep
Thoughts spinning round in my head
Keep me awake night after night
Lord help me in the morning I will look a fright
As the clock strikes four
I give up, my feet hit the floor
Opening the medicine cabinet I find an array of pills they say will give me rest
Which one shall I try tonight?
Will the pink, blue or yellow do the trick?
In desperation, I down them with a cup of hot milk
I grab a novel and settle in to bore myself to sleep
No use, so I begin to count sheep
My eyes are heavy but sleep will not come
I toss and turn upon my bed
I am overcome with this strange feeling of dread
It seems like only yesterday my body clock was disrupted and went astray
I think it may have been in 2005 when I slept soundly through an entire night
Insomniac by night, zombie by day
My memories slipping, my temper is short
Dark circles under my eyes
At times during the day I break down and cry
Doctors prescribe one pill after the other
There is no relief in sight
Once again, I endure one more sleepless night

barb (67.58.201.241) -- Friday, March 16 2007, 12:50 am

sleep
When I'm not tired from doing things I can't sleep I'm disabled and don't do much so Sleep doesn't come easy. I found if I take a couple of Gravol It makes me groggy And then I sleep but don't try this until you ask your Doctor or phone the hospital and see if they are ok for you.

barb (67.58.201.241) -- Friday, March 16 2007, 12:56 am

oh yeah
I forgot one more thing I do is I go to bed the same time everynight so its a routine for me and I have a glass of juice instead of coffee or tea after supper. Hope these are somethings you haven't already tried and hope they work for you.

Catyrose (128.123.85.206) -- Friday, March 16 2007, 01:30 am

Thanks Barb
I've never heard of Gravol but I will ask my Doc about it. And your right, I need to get into a routine, I'll give it a shot. Thx again.

A friend (64.12.116.142) -- Friday, March 16 2007, 03:29 am

Try some...
...5-HTP. It's a natural medication, that converts to seratonin and helps you to sleep. You can buy it anywhere; it's with the vitamins and minerals. Insomnia is so frustrating. Been there, done that, and don't want it to ever happen again. Couldn't even begin to tell you what happened that made it stop. It just did.

Bipedalguy (4.156.108.17) -- Friday, March 16 2007, 06:54 am

Me too
I have several serious diseases, one of which makes sleep very elusive. I have been an insomniac since 1989. I worried a lot about not being able to function on my job for lack of sleep. The anxiety reinforced the cause, resulting in more anxiety. (a forever loop)
One thing that helps is to convince myself that I just don't care. I don't care if I sleep or not. That breaks the anxiety loop. Right now it's 2:45 a.m. I can't sleep, and I don't care. It works. I'll probably fall asleep later, but I don't care. (and I don't worry) Not 1 sleeping pill in at least 10 years.
Bipe

Catyrose (128.123.85.206) -- Friday, March 16 2007, 05:19 pm

Thanks to all
for your suggestions. At this point I am willing to try just about anything. Again thanks for taking the time to respond. :)

Meridian (151.199.134.18) -- Monday, March 19 2007, 01:33 am

if this isn't me in a nutshell
Fantastic Poem Ms. Catyrose! I can sleep for maybe two or three hours for my eyes are open again. The time my body wants to rest is around 7:oo a.m. and by that time, it's too late. I could go to bed late every night because of my schedule. But I could go to bed early (if when school lets out early) and hit the pillows and still be awake 5 hours and 45 minutes. My thoughts run too much. I worry too much for one thing. I'm a day-sleeper...lol

I feel your pain Caty. I need a month's rest. I still wouldn't catch up to all the years that I've missed rest, but it would suffice just the same.

Catyrose (128.123.85.206) -- Monday, March 19 2007, 06:27 pm

Meri
Thanks for your comments. We should form a club, seems like there are quite a few insomniacs on this site :)

Virginia Feddeler (24.15.120.44) -- Monday, June 27 2011, 12:57 am

Insomnia since October of 2008
After back surgery in the latter part of 2008, I lost the ability to fall asleep. I worked forty plus years and never imagined that anything like this was causing society this great pain.

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