Missing isnt even a glow in ones mind when one reaches out to touch, and nothing is there in return. Turning someone's image of the future from something drastic, to constant happiness, turns that from missing to a yearning, not a want, but a need.

As your heart races to try to keep pace with the one you are holding onto, you realize she is also holding onto these same thoughts. From what at one time seemed nothing short of a dream, now seems like a book that we are reading through and living every minute of it as we turn each page.

Crazy is thinking your feelings are so powerful that they can overcome any odd that defy it. Though when something forever seems so strong, you have no choice but to believe in the unexplainable. Where at any given point of day, im thinking about her, I can be assure that she's also thinking about me.

I'll collapse my thoughts, stare out a window into the sky, no longer wishing for the truth, she has looked into my soul so many times through her eyes. No longer just a future, but an eternal sunshine that brightens up any clouded thought.

She truly is the Angel I was meant to be with. As I pause for a second I see her looking at me with that smile of her's. A smile that comes out as if it has a new life. For as if its been hiding for so long. How her grayish blue eyes sparkle and how her head naturally falls to one side, and how she looks up at me with such a lively smile. And finally realizing that I am the person that woke up this sleeping beauty. I am the reason she is smiling. But, this is because she is the one that is giving me my life back.

Now realizing that I may of had past relationships, I was still alone for every-one of them. With her, every second puts so much life back into me, my heart will continue to beat long after im gone.

A feeling full and grown. Knowing with certainty that she will forever have my heart. I will hold onto her for eternity making sure her soul can never hurt again. The meaning of so many thoughts, so many emotions. They rest at bay as every night I can smile and hold her as we fall into our dreams.

Morning is inevitable which means so is that smile she gives me as I wake up next to her. Winter is slowly but surely taking its course, as the seasons are changing, my heart is growing stronger for this beauty. Day after day just keeps getting better. Indescribable to know she wants to share her life with me. When I thought I had been knocked down off my feet onto the cold-wet pavement to many times, she was there and helped me up.

Both of our hearts pounded as emotions poured into each others eyes. My future was starting right at me and smileing the whole time. Though it was then that I realized, she too had fallen so many times before. Realizing that it's not just a feeling, not just trust being something to guard, but barriers had been put up, between this presant moment and both of our pasts.

Though somehow, through a dark crowded room on a summer night, we both saw through our barriers of pain and looked directly into each others hearts.

She then a few months later tells me, that the first night I met her, the first glance, the first hug, stopped her heart for a second, because she felt like she found home, and it was that moment a tear fell from my face, because I knew exactly what she was talking about.

It's being happy and looking into the same direction because it's what we both want. No false tendancy's, just a vision, with a path, that we are walking on, and it's guideing us along the way. As if God has been watching us both, and perhaps said that it's time for them to stop suffering.

We are both each others blankets to lie on. She is my bestfriend, my light that is found somewhere between yearning and epathy. That steady pace we go as we take ahold of each others hands and walk our togetherness of life.

Though truly knowing whenever Im down, looking into my mind and seeing her smileing at me while we hold each other, gives me the feeling that I truly never had, and what that is, is the feeling of finally being complete.

I Love You Melissa