Woe as me. I live in former days. I drown my sorrow.
Thinking my life is depleting, Can I last until tomorrow?
Too sad to speak, too angry to punch. I am too depressed to cry.
I look at my self in the mirror and I ask my self why?
Why do you hate yourself? Why do you hurt so?
Why f*cken why? Keep asking I still will never know.
An ugly face stares at me the pain I can not deny.
Is this hurt and anger solely from a guy?
Do I like feeling hurt? Do I get off on the pain?
If I didn’t like it, then why do I do it again and again?
I look for answers, but Do I truly try?
Can I find love? Or is it something you must buy?
I am but a being, lost and not giving.
I am dead inside. Can I continue on living?
I am but only one piece in this humble pie.
I am but one human, and this human is high.
High as high can be, yet still close to the ground.
I have a voice yet amongst the pain I’ve lost my sound.
I look to the heavens and I am confronted with sky.
I see no god damn heaven, I see a clear blue lie.
Heavy clouds pound on me, making my eyes rain.
The thunder hurts my body. Lightening is my pain.
When the storm is over. A rainbow emerges.
My feelings escape through sudden hidden urges.
Such a pretty thing, yet I can not reach my pot of gold.
Can I cure my self before I grow old?
This one life. This one existence is all that I am.
I try to pull myself together, I just don’t think I can.
Tell me how you did it? And how you live today.
Teach me how to believe. Teach me how to pray.

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