You want me to be angry? I am. You want to know my pain? No.
You think it's always you that gets it so bad
You think no one else can feel it too
You hate your life
because you hated your wife
and now you hate everyone around you
you hate that things aren't as you'd planned
you didn't get the chance
now the whole world is damned
you never asked once
how I felt inside
you left me alone
in my room while I cried
it didnt seem like you cared
and I still don't know if you did
what the hell was my problem
it wasn't good enough that I was your kid
so many times when I try to say
that things aren't so bad
that there's another way
you put me down
make me feel like shit
i'm sorry I can't be what you wanted of me
I'm sorry I failed you in everything
I hate you for being the way that you are
but I love you for knowing you're a human
we all have our things that didn't work out
but sometimes we have to stop and not shout
sometimes we must think rather pout
and not care how the others have fucked us
what makes it so sad
there's times that I know
that life's just a show
that it's all gone off wrong
but I still have hope
that we can find a way to cope
but I tell you this,
and it's hardest of all
even my dreams are starting to fall
I hate to think that there's no turning back
but the way it looks now
I couldn't tell you that without doubt
every time that we talk
it gets a little greyer
god damnit you may as well turn to the razor
life's not worth living
when everyone hates
and it's sure as hell hard
to love when there's pain
I don't know what to do
I'm sick of playing this game
please give me a way out.

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