I miss you so i didn't think that you would ever go. I'm sorry that it happened so fast. I never dreamed I would wake up and you would be ripped out of my arms. I fought hard, it didn't matter, they came and took you. My heart beat got faster, I felt as if life didn't matter. I wont give up on my fight to make us a family again I will never forget about my little men you were just 6, 4 when social services opened that door. I didn't realize how much one could hold so much hurt inside. I made a mistake yes, and I'm paying for it everyday. If I could turn back the hands of time I wouldn't have crossed that line so in reality I know that I'm not the parent that I should be. I'm telling you this because it's how I feel. I wish that none of this was real. I pray that no one has to go around with this pain I feel. So people, before you try and make a decision that has no explanation think about how it will affect your life because you could walk around with a heart full of wishes. I did not beat or starve my boys, I was homeless and slept in my vehicle. I was trying to get back home where we belong but before I could they took my kids. I did not post this for sympathy, I just wanted to let my feelings be known.

I just wanted to say thanks for this site and a chance for someone else to hear my feelings.