My Final Poem.
16 March, 2009
Author: Emma-Louise
Forgive me as I haven't written in over 2 years,
this will definitely not be my winning piece.
But I'm reading back about my heartbreak and tears,
and the weight of this heavy heart I must release.
I used to write poems when I was just a young teen,
I can see now how they were the tales of my broken soul.
They didn't say what I had written them to mean,
But they still told stories about abuse and control.
I experienced things I wasn't emotionally ready for,
and my 'loving' older boyfriend manipulated me.
Without him, now my heart and mind is free to soar,
& now I am able to finally see.
I will never be used as a doormat again,
I am much older now and my confidence knows no bounds.
I will never let you, or anyone, cause me pain,
& my 'tortured soul' makes no more sounds.
So this is just to say that although I will never forget,
& I am a much stronger person because of you.
As strange as it sounds, I will never regret
all the pain and heartache you put me through.
I really have learnt so much from my ordeal,
even though I can still feel you like a curse.
I'm now able to laugh, and most importantly - FEEL,
so this is for you my darling, my final verse.
------- Author's Notes -------
This is absolutely rubbish, I know. But I've just read through all the poems I have done and they made me feel so sad. I was nothing but a troubled teenager suffering in silence from an abusive relationship just crying out for help with my words. It hurts me so much to think that I let someone do that to me. I suffered that for 2 years when I was only a young girl. I've had to rebuild myself completely but I've done it, and I'm now the happiest I've ever been. I will still think of him everyday, it's hard not to when he played such a huge part in my life.. but he never controls me the way that he did. I haven't seen him since I found the strength to leave him and I am healed. I am the person I was before I met him and even more. He robbed me of my childhood but I don't regret my experience with him because he taught me so many life lessons. Most importantly, how to be a stronger person. |
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Comments on this poem/writing:
| LinzAy (71.43.163.83) -- Monday, March 16 2009, 05:25 pm Great way to say goodbye :) |
| Meridian (72.64.40.124) -- Wednesday, March 18 2009, 04:31 pm Lovely write! Don't leave us though! Come back! |
| Mike (78.147.236.192) -- Saturday, March 28 2009, 12:53 pm grats Emma :D! you are like the queen of getoveryourself [not as harsh as its supposed to sound]. Occasionally, I look over the poems that I've written and posted on this site and its just like woah.. Did I really feel like that? Glad to know we're both getting over everything that happened to us and all the sh*tty times we had. I'm proud of yo ubbz ;) xx |
| Emma-Louise (82.17.211.86) -- Saturday, March 28 2009, 05:27 pm muahaa :) thought you might want to see this. I can't believe how horrible and depressing the poems we wrote were! I read back over these and I honestly feel so sad for the person I was. I didn't want anyone to read all these and take pity on me, hence my final poem! :) i miss you fatty! xx |
| Mike (78.147.236.192) -- Saturday, March 28 2009, 05:30 pm Lmao :P i've still got all my rough copies n shiz upstairs in a 'secretplace' so can't really get away from them. But I like em, they're a part of me init. And I miss you too ;( we gotta make more of an effort to talk coz like.. yeah ;( xx |
| Emma-Louise (82.17.211.86) -- Tuesday, March 31 2009, 01:24 pm I was just reading through all your old poems and saw one where you gave 'gifts' to your family. I commented saying something like what would you give me? And you said "I'd give you my soul, then we'd always be friends forever." :') xx |
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