I'm going to have a baby.
It's hard to believe, but never in my life have I felt more alone without love.
As afraid of love as I am, I feel my soul still burns for it.
There have already been so many moments I have needed someone to hold me...but instead I hold myself.
There have already been so many moments where I could have used a "You look beautiful" and have had to stand in front of the mirror...with my growing belly...trying to convince myself I do.
There have been so many moments, like now, where I just needed someone beside me filling my empty moments.
I have my cat to snuggle with every night and a belly to hold...but to wake each morning to a man who truly cares would be a dream.
How am I going to do this alone?
But how would I ever believe someone would ever be true to me to not?
I've never felt so alone yet so afraid to be strong enough to open myself...
...I wish this was something I could run from...