Sweet Love,
Just look at me here for just one moment...I am this woman who is wandering between the past and the present, lost in deep love and pain, with more losses than gains.I am this one who hides behind dreams and fantasies, flowers and fairies with a poetical heart so full of literature and art.Yes, I am this creature of God, a human being with feelings, instinctive and afraid of so many unknown things.
You are my King, your wish is my command but you are too what I can’t understand.Sometimes, so close, so hot, so caring and then, in a sleigh of hand, your heart is so far way. I have no words to bring you closer, I don’t know what to do and what to say.
You are my sweet present, my distant dream and I want this oneness with you, you are the path where I want to walk with honor and light.But, it seems to me these things are not meant to happen, you keep pushing me away…Yes, my heart is a wonderland and maybe I am Alice.However, be sure you made me forget the past.I was a teenager for some moments, so in love with you, still in love with you.
I can’t simply sweep away the past to under the carpet, things don’t disappear fast, they last so painfully sometimes.Many things are at stake…But there is no need to hurt me like you have been doing. I treat you with respect, I treat you as one aspect of the divine because I see God in all His creations.Sometimes you really drive me mad and I have to go away because I can’t stand it, I can’t stand it.
You know my eyes adore you…your hair…your everything…Love is beyond understanding.It is impossible to sum up it in words because love has to be expressed in attitudes and I do think it is a flower in eternal bloom, there is always a beautiful petal to be seen and touched.The moment we stop taking care of this special flower, it is because it does not mean anything more in our lives.So if it is too much work and effort for you,I will understand.Just let me gather all the flowers I gave you and go away.No need to show the door. I have been through this before.
Love always,
Karla Bardanza
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