Day By Day by Tommy M

Everyday I wake up,
with the same shit on my mind.
What's on my agenda,
how will I get high.
My days are getting numbered,
from all the things I do.
If I would disappear now,
would I even leave a clue.
I try to get myself straight,
easier said then done.
All i do is ask God,
am I the only one?
I know I'm not the smartest guy,
and I'm okay with that.
But I feel like god took a knife,
and stabbed me in the back.
I watch the blood fall down my arm,
waiting for that rush.
Untie my arm just one more time,
I can never get enough.
How am I to do good,
when I can't control myself.
I would trade all possessions,
for a cleaner bill of health.
I always have this haunting,
tearing at my thoughts.
I can't ever get away from it,
I never even fought.
I did all this to myself,
there is no one else to blame.
But at the time it felt so right,
not a single ounce of shame.
I know I can't go on like this,
it's tearing me apart.
But why should I even care,
I never had a heart.
If anyone knew what I had done,
my future would be crushed.
I wll not stop, there is not a chance.
I would rather just give up.

Lisamarie (173.58.92.156) -- Thursday, January 28 2010, 04:58 pm

Your not the only one
Tommy, i've been in your shoe 7 years ago. keep writing, it will help you alot. remember no matter what dont pick up!! just think about what got you there and what you've lost. My rock is my kids and HP. read my story about what change my life. keep writing you got it on you>>

Aurora (71.193.249.99) -- Wednesday, October 13 2010, 12:02 am

Amazing :)
I never realised what the life of an addict was like, You made me cry :) this is great please keep writing

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