I fight back the tears
As my brain does what it does best,
Screwing up my thoughts,
Give me a god damn rest.

I bite my lip and count to three.
Breathe I say,
Don’t give up.
Die another day.

What have I done?
And where am I going?
Looking for that piece of tranquility
I think I dropped it…cracks are showing.

I blamed the world around me.
I said it wasn’t fair.
I am the monster,
Is anybody out there? Does anybody care?

A child present in an adult mind.
Am I destined to feel the way I do?
Can I get through this?
Is any of it true?

I try and I try,
I don’t try hard enough.
Tough my ass,
Call my bluff.

I thought I could do this,
I thought this could be it…
Then why in the hell do I cry,
And why the f*ck do I feel like shit?

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