My Pain by April Erwin

I deserve all my pain
To be put to shame
It's my fault you hate me so
Because I cause you pain and woe

I'm a burden weighing you down.
Always making you frown
It's been quite a while
Since I've made ytou smile

If I were never born
You'd never mourn
You would have an easier life
With joy and have no strife

I seem to fill your days with gloom,
Hindering your life with endless doom
I close the doors open for you
Hurting you with everything I do

With every breath I take
I think its a mistake
That I shouldn't be living
With all the hurt I'm giving

All bad things you say is my fault
Maybe if I could disappear,
Or move far away from here
You could have your life back
Again and there would be no more sin
You could be happy once more
The way it was before
If I would take away my life
To take my breath away
In the ground I would lay
That's where I belong

For all the things I've seemed to do wrong

One day I will find the courage within
The courage to make it happen
And when that day comes your'll see
That day will make you happy That you will cry,
But will be happy inside
And that's ok that's the debt I must pay

I should be dead for all the things I've said
But I'm truly sorry for it all
I honestly am,

But I understand
The only way to make things right,
Is to born out my life's light
To end it all tonight
The only thing that stops me is fear
Afraid of what I'll hear, cries from hell
If it's my soul it will sell,

So I pray to God go to end my life
To end all the strife
To make the sad happy again
To cleanse away every sin,
It will happen only when I'm bound ..

jennifer (152.163.253.34) -- Wednesday, February 4 2004, 10:53 pm

my comment
this poem is a good poem it reminds me of a time when i wanted this because i hurt a good friend of mine i hurt her real bad by taking away the thing she loved the most!

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