My sight constricted, brain dead, hallucinations of love, new like grade school. In it all, caused pain and heartache too hard to bear for one soul. Lost sight and grasp of what is most important to my life, what gives me purpose, I lost my soul mate, my Clyde, my first and only true love.

Fear, anguish, panic attack mode, anxieties makes me physically sick, waves of nausea crash down on me. A venomous snake, I poisoned our lives. An antidote needed before it spreads and extremities, extensions of me are lost forevermore.

Antidote……

The wall of lies, defensiveness, denial, selfishness, naiveté, pride, secrets, anger, self-pity, excuses, wrongdoing, unfaithfulness, blame, is falling, the foundation broken.

Reflection; self-reflection decades over-due. TRUTH, communication, TRUTH, honesty, TRUTH, openness, TRUTH, love, TRUTH, purpose, TRUTH, support, TRUTH, pleasure, TRUTH, understanding, TRUTH, encouragement, TRUTH, attention, TRUTH

Antidote……but is it too late?