Untitled by Meridian Zuriel

Ima run to God
But it'll be too late
Ima say please let me
Make it through the gate
Give me of your oil
I ran out of time
Time I had
I say wasn't enough
Thought God wasn't serious
That I could call His bluff

Ima cry and plead
But no one will hear
All the time I had
Year after year
To give my life to Christ
To serve Him entirely
I gave to Satan
Let him have the best of me

There will come a day
Where I'll close my eyes
Lift em up again
And it'll be no surprise
Where I'll end up
Cause I didn't heed the call
Tormented for eternity
Regretting my fall

Devices and gadgets
I let turn my heart away
From The One
Who lets it beat from day to day
I forsake God
But don't want Him to forsake me
I'm not fair
But I want Him to be
I serve these other gods
Committing idolatry
None of which
Hung on the cross and died for me

I let electronics distract me
And so I waste time
Time I can never get back
And I face the fact
That
I gotta show Jesus
Everything inside
It isn't as if
I could really hide
I'm scared I'll wait
Until it's too late
But I need help
I could deny, but it would be a lie
Wouldn't really make sense to dispute
So I resume to testify

It is what it is
And I procrastinate
But this route I know
Ain't up for debate
You're either gon do
Or you won't
Either all the way in
Or not at all

Thinking I'ma live forever
But I don't have to see
Another day
Taking for granted God's mercy
A happy home today
Could be
A home of sorrow on tomorrow

Tomorrow isn't promised
Though I think it is
I see how far I can go
Before vengeance is His

Ima piece of work
Convicted because I'm found out
So I just tell
The Lord all about
Me
And that I'm His enemy
Not really abiding
By the B-I-B-L-E
The book of basic instruction
Designed just for me

But

I don't wanna suffer
Don't really wanna be
What He wants
Or asks of me
I want it my way
So I confess and say
Lord I'm guilty
Take it from me
All the things I allow
To corrupt my soul
I'm neither hot or cold
I'm lukewarm
Full of bologna

Say one thing, come one way
Then do the total opposite
The very next day

I'm the reason behind my fate
Then I have the audacity
To blame God, when the blessing's late
If it ever comes, but the real is
I gotta give God what is His
Do better with my free time, my free will
Talk to Jesus while I still
Can
Learn how to draw a line in the
Sand
There's no clue how close my end is at
Hand

There's no time like the present
And that is so true
I'm nervous before the punishment
That is sure to come
Repenting doesn't stop a whipping
I must pay
Regardless of
How long I pray
Best believe
It's coming anyway

If anybody could relate
To this scenario
If the children of Israel were here
Then they would let you know
How they were delivered out of Egypt
But did their own thing
Was stiff-necked like yours truly
So God had to get em
Just like He's getting me

So I keep talking
And steady walking
Getting things off my chest

Because sin is there
I never rest

But all I can do is express
What I don't wanna admit
I have pride and it's gotta go
Besides I'm telling God
What He already knows
Which is exactly why
I reap what I sew

Mean to come correct
Without intent of disrespect
Since I fail to neglect
My cares, my loves which will
Lead me straight down
If I don't make it right in this life
I know where I'm bound

So as long as I'm able
And my mind sound
I need the consuming fire
To destroy and burn inside out
All night and day
In every single way
Til I repulse what I say
I can't do or live without
Til a different manner of conversation
Comes out my mouth

And I only know One
With the power to change my desires
My intentions, feelings and thoughts within
I look to Jesus to help save me from my sins
As I help myself for once by not giving in

BARB (67.58.209.115) -- Monday, May 22 2017, 04:57 pm

EXCELLENT WRITE
MERI WHAT is your point you were making so much reading by the end I forgot your point.
LOVE BARB

Meri (173.94.94.149) -- Monday, May 22 2017, 11:09 pm

Hey Barb - You know me
I'm still long-winded. Words just keep coming, that's why I write so long. It's about my soul and a long cry for help.

Thanks Barb.

Love,
Meri

barb (67.58.209.115) -- Tuesday, May 23 2017, 02:17 am

helping
I wish I could help you out buy all I can do is share my thoughts, which are realize you are special mistakes and everything. I have made a lot of mistakes but I think god knows I feel bad and that I learned and won't make the same mistake new mistakes yes of course.

Meri (173.94.94.149) -- Thursday, May 25 2017, 01:26 am

Thanks so much Barb
I appreciate it.

Yes. Same here. You're right. Live, learn and grow.

A lot of times, strength is gained through experience.

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