My Addiction by Faye

I am addicted to cutting myself.
I don't even decide to anymore.
It's just what I do.
I don't actually think I can stop.
I'm not sure I want to anyway.

Life is Idiotic,
Filled with self-hate,
And disgust.
With dejection,
And depression.
But as there is a way into this world
There is must be a way out.

If I killed myself
To be, free
Then I would go to hell.
Because of the 'Crime' I had committed.
How can you call it a crime or a sinful act
When you are just trying to help?

Am I filled with all those I named in this world?
Have they manifested themselves in my soul?
Am I fucking delusional?!
But if I'm delusional.
Others must be to.

I cant be the only one in this place,
Who wants to get out.?
But then,
I'm not sure again,
Whether I want to be rid
Of this stupid fucking world.

But if I don't want to be,
Then what am I doing?
What are you doing?
I think I must be addicted.
As I said before,
I'm addicted to cutting myself

batafish22 (64.72.57.205) -- Friday, December 17 2004, 09:18 pm

i feel for you
i too am addicted to cutting, and im glad i found more people who are, for i was beginning to fell alone.

Diamond (64.12.116.197) -- Wednesday, March 23 2005, 05:02 am

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i am addicted to cutting to its something i do to release how i am feeling but i find myself doing it on a regular bases...

nameless (165.139.78.225) -- Tuesday, September 26 2006, 11:43 pm

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My friend tried to kill herself and for me she saved her life.She and me both were into cutting and it took over mine and her life. She wanted to get out of this world to help herself. She ended up over dosing and going to the hospital. She went to the emergancy room and they sent her home. They soon called her back and told her she had blood poising and they took her to the hospital and for two days she was in ICU. They sent her to Riley hospital and she was going to have to have a liver transplant. She was very close to death and all the doctors could say was "its a miracle she lived" She regrets everything she has done because of how deeply it hurt everyone that she didnt think cared.

Arin (208.108.115.4) -- Friday, April 13 2007, 01:37 pm

i know how you feel
i feel the same way...i am glad there are other ppl out there

Ing Twi Demalah (159.105.102.65) -- Friday, April 13 2007, 10:20 pm

Smile......
For none of us in this world ever walk alone. For there is always someone who knows our pain, who prays for us or cries for us. Someone who we make feel better or loved or needed just by being there. Everyone here is a very important part of this world. For each of you are unique and help make this world a little better just by being who you are. Each of you has one person who keeps you in their thoughts and in their prayers, and now, you have two.

Ing

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