It's only concerned tears that water her eyes,
It's only the reality of having what she doesn't want that causes the repetitive cries.
the responsibility she can't hack, the constant role of maturity, her youth is under attack.
The AA didn't stop her from her nights at the bar,
Now her mother had taken things too far.
The helpless soul longing to be free,
The child inside that wants to flee.
A life without happiness or hope,
a downhill depression for which she couldn't cope.
Not when everything else came first,
not when her own mother's drinking was the priority rather than her own children's thirst.

"I can't live like this,
I can't take a hand full of nothing and make it bliss.
I'm alone in the world,
I've no one to confide
These scars on my arms are proof that I'm sick inside.
I can't go on living this way,
I'm writing this letter cause I'm ending it today.
The blade I could never push too deep,
The pain in me I just couldn't weep.
I know you won't understand,
my life was just too much demand.
I hate you mom for what you've made me be,
I hate you mom for stealing my life from me.
You'll never know what you've put me through,
maybe if you would have stayed sober once you would have noticed those who care for you.
Not anymore it's not all up to me,
Maybe this will open up your eyes and make you see.
And if it does help you to grow
and give your life some progress to show.
Then it's worth giving my soul to hell,
rather than if we both had fell.
I was in prison inside my mind,
my heart was going blind.
I would have never emotionally made it alive,
I wasn't really able to strive.
I'm not sorry,
so pick up and move on
Things will get better now that I'm gone."

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