Suicide Letter by Holly A. Badolato

I'm sorry for all the pain I've put you through.
For all the times you tried to help me,
I never meant to hurt you.
I hurt so deep inside from everything you've done to me.
Sometimes I just hurt so much I don't know what to do.

I don't understand.
Why dont you love me?
Am I not good enough for you.
I don't know why you hate me.

Your moved me to this Hell Hole town and I dont understand why.
Is it so you could make me do this to myself.
Well I'll be happy when you fry.
Can't you see what you've done.

Tell all my friends I'm sorry.
I didn't mean to make them cry.
I love them all so much.
I just couldn't say goodbye.

Tell Nick, Joe, and Jenny I didn't mean to make them sad.
But if you will please tell them mom,
It was all you and dad.
Your made me do this.
So don't tell them I was bad.

I didn't want to go to that place.
To be scared and alone.
I don't know what I might do.
I might kill to use a phone.

I knew I had to end it fast and quick.
So I had two ways to do it.
Now all I had to do was pick
In the process I might lose it.

I could take the knife and slit my wrist.
And do it one by one.
Or to make you just alittle pist,
I might even uses a gun.

Make sure that you understand why I'm doing this/
I had to, I wasn't meant to be alive.
I wasn't meant to be on this earth.
I was meant to die.

You'll find my notes and letters,
In a little silver chest.
I stashed them there one afternoon.
While I was getting dressed.

I never meant to make you cry.
But SH*T happens so GOODBYE!!!

Meridian (205.188.208.139) -- Thursday, March 18 2004, 07:47 pm

I cry
Holly! Holly! Holly! Suicide is definitely not the way to go. Please don't take that path; because it's not worth taking your own life. Life overpowers death; please try to understand.
God loves you!

Holly A. Badolato (12.34.167.71) -- Thursday, March 18 2004, 11:38 pm

Meridian.
Hey its just a poem...im not really going to commit suicide. Dont worry. Sure ive thought about it but i dont think i could ever really do it...dont worry its ok..dont worry about me..thanks for reading my poem. PEACE!!!

barb (209.112.22.196) -- Sunday, March 21 2004, 04:20 pm

compassion
Holly Please don't take suicide lightly. meridan was just being compassionate . I read this and thought you really felt this way. good writing.

Lady Eryemil (152.163.252.101) -- Monday, March 22 2004, 01:11 am

-_-
I have this thing against suicide poems, not really the poems though just the idea behind them. Life sucks but hopefully there is something good for everyone out there, at least for my sake I hope so ^_^
Anyways... The poem is very interesting, when I read instead of feeling your anger or sadness like I just feel indiference... Don't know if you meant it to be like that.

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