A Final Plea by Hunter

No matter what I try,
I just can't win.
I mearly wish to die.
Is that such a sin?

What could I have done,
To deserve such a hell?
I still haven't won.
I am alive and well.

This flame of life,
Just will not cease.
Someone please feel my strife,
And give me my peace,

What could I have done,
To deserve such a hell?
I still haven't won.
I am alive and well.

Why must I make it,
Through yet another day?
No more can I take it.
God, why must I pay?

What could I have done,
To deserve such a hell?
I still haven't won.
I am alive and well.

I lead the knife,
To the weakened vien.
Because the loss of my life,
Is all I wish to gain.

And now as I bleed,
As I taste what I need,
The bleeding takes heed,
On the scripture I read.
And from your god's greed,
This pain my life seeds,
Goes on with the need,
That tempts me to bleed.

What could I have done,
To deserve such a hell?
I still haven't won.
I am alive and well.

What else could I do,
But turn to you,
Count on you,
Beg you,
Through, and through, and through?

KILL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lauren (152.10.152.140) -- Monday, September 16 2002, 07:56 pm

why do you want to die?
As a fellow poet, I can relate to you. There have been hard times where, I believe, all of us wanted to die. But if any relationship, for whatever reason, made you want to commit suicide because she didn't care for you anymore (or didn't feel it right to be your girlfriend) doesn't mean you're worthless. Life is a mirror. If you look in it and all you see is "I hate my face. I'm ugly. I wish I were him/her," then life will reflect that... and you'll be miserable. BUT if you learn to have faith in yourself first (besides religion) and see things only through what you see and not compare, you can be really happy. I have faith that someday you'll turn around, but you have esteem issues to confront before you go any further. Please! I beg you to see the difference!

HUNTER (208.50.58.11) -- Tuesday, September 17 2002, 03:47 am

Dont want to die
thank you for your concern lauren. i apreciate your kindness. please let me set your fears to rest and explain that this piece was written after a tragic loss in my life, many years ago. writting this poem was my way to cope with such a loss. as the poem depicts, i would never have the will to kill myself, but at the time i did wish for the end to come from the hand of another. being that the emptiness she had left me with made me feel dead inside any way, the poem was written fittingly as a plea for her to complete what she had left unfinished.

a final plea (66.153.166.53) -- Friday, September 20 2002, 12:40 am

comment from mental
i'm glad your over that and i now your feelings and pain.
in 84 i lost both parents in the same month. and several years after that i felt like killing myself, i still have scar on my left wrist to remind me.
but hey you made it through, cool

Roy (152.163.188.193) -- Monday, September 30 2002, 03:16 am

You frighten me
Something trys to take our life I think because it wants to stop us from caring anymore about ourself.

Abbas (192.168.102.35) -- Wednesday, February 2 2005, 07:36 am

really close to Human MinD
Amazing mentality am really impressed Hunter it really portrays whats human is going through Now adays ....well can i wanna read more of your poems who are really this much near to reality. Astonishing collection

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