I Didn’t Mean To by Justus Isaiah Richardson

Mom and dad said they’d be home at eleven.
I planned this whole scene around their schedule.
They were supposed to find me in time to save me,
But they got pulled over on their way home.
I began to panic when they didn’t arrive.
The blood was pouring from the gashes on my wrists.
Oh my God! Oh my God! This wasn’t part of the plan!
I don’t want to die, I just wanted them to hear me!!
Wait! What’s that light?? Where did it come from??
Grandpa, Is that you? Why are you here?? You’re dead!!
Am I dead? No, I can’t be!! I’m only fourteen!!
Grandpa, I wasn’t really trying to kill myself!!
Mom and Dad were supposed to come home and save me!
Who’s that with you Grandpa? He looks like an angel!
Tell me what’s going on?? Why are you both crying??
I didn’t mean to do this! Someone please help me!!
Wait!! Grandpa where are you going?? What’s happening??
There’s Mom and Dad, and they’ve got paramedics with them!
Why are they shaking their heads?? Come on, do something!!
No! don’t put that sheet over my head, save me!!
Use those electric things!! You’ve got to restart my heart!!
Mom don’t cry. Tell them! Tell them to keep trying!!
I don’t wanna be dead!! Grandpa said I’m stuck here now!
Mom you can’t give up on me!! Why can’t you hear me??
Dad! Dad, please tell me you can hear me!! Daddy, please!!
I don’t like this! It’s so empty, and lonely and dark!!
Daddy, I don’t like being alone, help me!
Oh God, what have I done? Please give me another chance!
I don’t wanna be stuck here, like this forever!
At least say something! Why can’t anyone hear me??
I only wanted Mom and Dad to notice me!
To know that I wasn’t happy with my life!
I was only trying to get their attention!
I didn’t really mean to commit suicide!!

Megan (68.122.226.110) -- Wednesday, March 17 2004, 02:09 pm

OMG!!!
Wow! That was chilling! That so could have been me!

Lady Eryemil (205.188.200.58) -- Friday, March 19 2004, 01:53 am

>_<
Hmm mon cher, not trying to sound like a heartless bitch but killing yourself just for attention would hardly get any sympathy from me, the person in the poem
sounds just like a whiney, spoilt little kid. Just because life do doesn't go the way we want it it's not reason to kill ourselves. Want to give hell a visit, try living one day in my life. Even though this poem does make me angry I like the way you used the words to express the angst and confusion that that person must have been feeling at that moment.

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