Lately I don’t understand,
What has gotten into me,
I’m not acting like myself,
As far as I can see,
I’ve been doing things lately,
Things that I hate people for,
So why am I doing them?
I don’t know who I am anymore,
Last night I started crying,
With my boyfriend by my side,
Tears wouldn’t stop falling,
These feelings I couldn’t hide,
All my emotions became so mixed,
I was anxious for no reason,
I don’t know who I can trust,
Or for that fact who I believe in,
I was arrested for shoplifting,
My first time and my last,
I was with my girlfriends,
Just hoping time would pass,
Then I got drunk the other night,
Something I would never do,
Where is daddy’s little girl?
The one that always pulled through,
No one could influence her,
She did everything her own way,
Obviously something’s happened,
Because that girl has gone away,
When I start thinking back,
On everything that’s gone on,
I think of what my dad would say,
And I’m glad that he is gone,
I know it sounds terrible,
But I could never let him down,
Even though he is deceased,
I can still see his frown,
I know we all experiment,
In our youthful years,
But now that I’m at that age,
Experimenting is my worst fear,
God forgive my behavior,
And help all those in their youth,
Not everything you do is okay,
And I know that’s the truth.

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