I'm asking for a favor,
yes now I ask your help.
I hope that you can save me,
for I can't save myself.

I cry through every morning,
and once again at night.
I find myself just wondering,
Do I die or fight?

I know that you all love me,
and you should know that I love you.
You know that if you lost yourself,
I surely would die too.

I try to see the good,
and accept what I can't change.
But though I try to do this,
I can not destroy the pain.

I no longer think the world is bad,
for my friends, they treat me well.
With them it is so heavenly,
but I still feel I'm in hell.

My friends, they call to listen,
but I only throw them out.
I let the pain build up,
until to save me I must shout.

I want to let them feel it,
this pain I've held so close.
But even if they did,
I'd still feel like no one knows.

I know they want to help me,
and of course, I need some help.
But they can no longer save me,
for I must save myself.

I hate what it's come down to,
that now it's come to this.
That although the anger hurts,
the anger is my bliss.

I can no longer run away,
for I can't even walk.
I can no longer ask your name,
for now I can not talk.

I try to tell the doctors,
to bring you here to me.
Although my lips are moving,
I guess they just don't see.

I need you here for comfort,
to help me say goodbye.
I want these last cold moments,
spent looking in your eyes.

My vitals now are fading,
they just can't stop the blood.
When it rains, it pours,
but when I cry, it floods.

I grab the doctor's collar,
and pull him to my face.
With these last few words I speak,
my heart begins to race.

"Tell them that I love them,
I never meant to leave.
But this death I've finally reached,
is the best gift I've recieved."

"Tell them that I'm sorry,
for I just couldn't fight.
Tell them that the days,
will no longer feel like night."

"Tell them I won't hurt now,
and for that they should be proud.
Tell them he can't hurt me,
for now it's not allowed."

"Tell them I will watch them,
from every cloud they see.
Tell them when they feel the wind,
don't be scared it's me.

"Tell them that it's over,
yes now I've reached my end.
Tell them that I'm thinking,
how much I'll miss my friends."

A tear fell from my cheek,
and then I went to rest.
Knowing that in life,
my friends, they were the best.

And now I watch them constantly,
from each cloud, to each star.
I hear them say they're fine,
but I wonder if they are.

I whisper in the wind,
with that I stir a storm.
The storm, it gets so rough,
a tornado starts to form.

The tornado kills my friend,
who could no longer live.
I felt this gift I gave her,
was the best that I could give.

And so we watch together,
for now I'm not alone.
But it hurts to see my death,
turned my friends from love to stone.

I wonder if it helped,
I wonder, was it right?
Should I have held on?
Should I have tried to fight?

For now, my friends, they die,
though I thought they would go on.
They feel they can not live,
knowing now I'm gone.

So now I've took their happiness,
although I now am free.
I realize that I killed them,
yes now I finally see.

Soon enough they join me,
yes now we're all together.
Though we couldn't count on always,
now we have forver.

None of us feel sad now,
we finally feel free.
This life I've always wanted,
has finally come to be.

So I ask you now a favor,
but not to save my life.
Just think of these few words,
when your life it comes to strife.

Just look up to the clouds,
and remember what I say.
Although your life is dark,
it will be light again one day.

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