Shot Back Down by Leah06

Yesterday I wasn’t myself
I thought, for some reason, I had changed.
So I worked up the nerve to ask a friend
To homecoming, hoping as friends we could go together.
That night I was so happy, excited, maybe even nervous
But when it came time to ask, I was scared shitless.
My heartbeat was way above normal
And for once I felt I had a chance.
I was so wrong.
I asked and got the only answer
I thought would never hurt me.
But it did
It did a lot.
I didn't understand why I was so disappointed
I had no reason to be, he is just a friend.
But I was hurting
And I still do.
But why?
I was expecting it all along
I knew I would never get someone to ask me
Or even go with me.
For those brief minuets
I felt strong, valuable, and above all else,
I felt confident.
Everyone wonders why I am so hard on myself
Well this is why.
Every time i'm on my way up,
I just get shot back down.

Martin Vann (171.75.207.216) -- Monday, October 13 2003, 09:47 pm

Perhaps, you should back-off, just a little.
Leah06,

Its doesn't work, when you want to be the haunted, yet, you fire all the shots. Take a break, be yourself, take some time, fire no more shots as shadows, play no guessing games, and if, you do, then you will be the winner, this will come true. You can not be the hunter, and the hunted as the same time.

UM

Terrie* (65.136.6.250) -- Saturday, October 18 2003, 09:53 pm

you'll get back up...and riding proudly again...
beautifully written....sometimes in life our let downs play a big part in our success.....the strength we develope after our hearts & stomachs have experienced the
many knots the pings the pangs the painful surge that never seems to go away ...will eventually...and it will be something to look back on as the source of our strength...do not be so hard on yourself...your knight in shinning armour is still out there looking for you ...he will surround you with beauty that you have never experienced before...

Leah 06 (206.110.20.2) -- Thursday, October 23 2003, 08:24 pm

UM and Terrie*
i hope i will some day. As of right now, i am working on it with help from my writing and all of you. Thanks for taking the time to comment and the time to care! It means a lot to me!

Ashley R. (66.52.72.184) -- Wednesday, October 29 2003, 02:18 am

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Dont worry. Just because ONE person said no to you, doesn't neccessarly mean the next one will. Just try, try, try again. Oh, and good poem!

Leah06 (12.232.5.189) -- Tuesday, November 4 2003, 02:35 am

Ashley R. ...
i have. And i gave up after the second try. Its ok though, i can and would rather write poetry! ;D. Thanks for commenting. And im glad you enjoyed it!

Leah Kendall

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