Our Lost Past by LinzAy

A friendship so wonderful
So strong
Others might have called it a platonic kind of love-though it wasn't
We had the most beautiful friendship
Then I said it
The words flowed from my mouth
~Like wine from it's bottle
I told you I Loved You
I don’t know why I said it
I scared myself
~I cant imagine how you felt
You looked so startled
~So confused
But you grabbed me and held me
Held me tighter than ever before
And it began
~A Love~
One that no one understood because it was so deep
One that towered over all other loves
It was so beautiful
~While it lasted
As quickly as our love for one another advanced to another level
~Sky-rocketed into the clouds
It ended
Tears streamed down these cheeks
~They still do
Not only because I lost a love that meant so much to me
But also because I lost you
~Lost our friendship
You told me I'd never lose your love as a friend
~But you lied
Since you couldn’t be there for me this time when i needed a shoulder to cry on
You felt you could never be here for me again
And you left
You wouldn’t give your friendship to me any longer
And wouldn’t accept mine
You deserted me completely
You abandoned such a beautiful friendship
I'll never have that again-not from anyone
But my life must go on
Although I'll never let go of the past
~I'll move on
You'll always be in my heart
I'll never forget you
~I'll never be able to
And try as I may
Of all the friends I'll make in the future
They’ll never compare to our lost friendship
Nothing, to me, will be as beautiful as before

everett (209.240.198.61) -- Wednesday, February 26 2003, 05:58 am

Ah i can relate to this one pretty well. Very good writing! i couldnt have put it together better myself! very emotional.....and deep!

LinzAy (205.188.208.43) -- Wednesday, February 26 2003, 09:56 am

reply to Ev
Thankyou Everett! i'm not sure if i'm too glad you can relate to this one but....well...grrr...i dunno what i'm trying to say!

everett (209.240.198.61) -- Wednesday, February 26 2003, 08:28 pm

lol its aight, i know what your trying to say :)

LinzAy (64.12.96.167) -- Wednesday, February 26 2003, 09:20 pm

......
hehe.....yea i'm a loser!

Mark Spencer (205.188.209.8) -- Wednesday, February 26 2003, 09:23 pm

Beautiful bt sad.
I had a friend who had a relationship similar to this. I knew them both actually. They had been friends for quite a few years before romance captured them. Then Jenn announced that she was pregnant. Lance panicked. He started accusing her of sleeping around, and claimed the baby wasn't his. When the opportunity to have a blood test performed came up, Lance backed out and washed his hands of both mother and child. Jenn felt that she lost the love of her life and her best friend at the same time. She was crushed. Three years have passed since then and Jenn is happily married to Greg, who IS her best friend and the love of her life. They are raising three children (only one of which is Greg's by blood). Jenn now understands that Lance never really was her friend, let alone her best friend. Otherwise he could never have so easily walked away. Love is not an on again off again emotion. It simply is. If it pulls you in, you will never truly escape. I still love every woman I have ever loved. That will never change. There were only three, but each one is posted on this website. Kathleen is THE PHOTOGRAPH, Lisa is I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU and Christine is THE PROMISE and THE CHOICE. I will never live long enough to stop loving them. True love never dies LinzAy. I'm sure you've discovered that for yourself. Someone soon will come into your life who deserves the love you are capable of. And he will love you, as I love Kathy, Lisa and Chris, to the end of his days. That wish for you will be included in my prayers today. God Bless You LinzAy. A sad but beautiful poem.

Mark

LinzAy (64.12.96.167) -- Friday, February 28 2003, 03:43 am

Mark
I'm glad your friend was able to realize what this guy felt for her was not true love and that she was able to move on with her life and actually find true love and a best friend. And the last few lines of your comment meant alot to me...thankyou Mark.

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