What If by LinzAy

I'm sitting here trying to convince myself that you're not what I need.
But that's only because you are exactly what would complete my life at this point.
So perfect-you
Perfect for me.
But for some reason that doesn't make any sense to me,
I don't want it.
Perfection.
It's so confusing really.
Maybe I just want to prove evryone wrong.
Not be so predictable. Show them up.
Try and find something more perfect than what they think you are for me.
More perfect than what I think you are for me.
It scares me to think that you're what I need,
what I want, what would complete me.
I'm trying to convince myself you're not him.
Although everyone, including myself, knows you are.
What if you're my Heaven-sent angel?
Heaven-sent angel...what if I'm yours?
I'm always telling myself you're not him,
you're not perfection,
that you're not my Heaven-sent angel.

Oh, but you are.
What if I wait too long to tell you?
Tell you all I feel, all I think, all I want, all I need.
What if I wait too long to tell you all about you?
Everything I've noticed about you.
Everything that I love.
I put too much thought into everything.
I've put too much thought into you and look at me.
I'm so damn confused.
So many emotions, so many feelings.
Love, jealousy, longing, confusion.
What if I pass you up?
What if I let you slip away?
What if I, the one in denial, let you go?
I'll regret it for forever, won't I?
Don't let me...
Please.

everett (209.240.198.63) -- Monday, January 20 2003, 04:28 am

hey...
that was a great poem, very emotional. i really liked this one!

LinzAy (64.12.96.75) -- Monday, January 20 2003, 08:44 am

....
Thanx Everett!...this was the one i was telling u about in a recent email.....

everett (209.240.198.63) -- Monday, January 20 2003, 06:19 pm

yeah..
I remember you telling me about it before. good stuff.

LinzAy (205.188.208.135) -- Tuesday, April 22 2003, 04:27 pm

lol
another comment i didnt know ya left! and another late reply!

Thanks for the second comment on the poem Ev!

gawd i'm such a loser....way too much spare time on my hands, blahblahblah.........

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