To The Depths Of Paranoia by LinzAy

As I sit here in the darkness of the world
With my face cupped in my hands
And paranoia setting in
I realize how far from reality I had ran
All I wanted was to get away from it all
All the craziness surrounding me
I succeeded
But probably ran too far for this to be
I didn't stop when I should've
Didn't turn back when i could've
Wish I realized when reality set in so I could
stop
If I did I would've
I've gone too far to reach out for help
Gone too far for my screams to be heard
If I knew I would've gone so far to get away
I would have stayed-that's what I would've
preferred
I just felt so closed in
Felt so surrounded by all that didn't care
Felt so backed into a corner
I thought it was all too much to take-all too
much to bear
I didn't know it would come to this
It was all just a big mistake
Didn't know in the end I'd want the old life back
If I could it's what i would take
I don't want to be here anymore
I now want to escape where I've ended up
But there's nowhere to go
I've gone as far as one could go-what a f**k up
Now I'm even more screwed up than I was
before
Scars have taken over my body
Pain has claimed my heart
And I still feel like a nobody
How I wish it were easy to go back to life i had
Go back to being just the average girlv But I can't, I was sucked into the depths of
paranoia
As I sat in the darkness of the world

everett (209.240.198.61) -- Wednesday, October 23 2002, 05:20 pm

Good Stuff
I already told you i liked this one also, but i felt like saying it again lol. good poem

LinzAy (209.240.198.61) -- Wednesday, October 23 2002, 07:39 pm

Hehe.....
Well, thanks again everett! haha...we're not weird!

sunshine (168.184.78.4) -- Thursday, January 16 2003, 05:51 pm

Absolute wow
Buddy, i love the way you write and this one reflects on how i feel sometimes... i love you buddy

LinzAy (64.12.96.13) -- Friday, January 17 2003, 08:20 pm

Sunshine
I didn't know that this poem reflects how u feel sometimes...hehe...ya never told me! It's so kewl to come on here and see that you've commented on my poems! I love you too!

lisa (65.137.79.70) -- Monday, February 24 2003, 01:48 am

hmmm...
this one really makes a person think...everyone thinks they have it soo bad, yknow? and then when they go after the 'life' they want - they realize that the way it used to be was better...but now its 2 late...they cant get back 2 where they were - and its kinda sad; 4 them anyways LOL...good poem!! and keep that notepad and pen by your bed at nite - incase u have an awesome dream or are inspired! heehee, luv ya Muaaah!

LinzAy (205.188.209.40) -- Wednesday, February 26 2003, 11:05 am

......
Yea......that's exactly what this poem was about, wanting another life then finally getting it and wanting what you had back bc u now realize how great it was, but ya cant turn back because you cant erase all you've done.

and trust me...that pen and paper are always near by!

Thanx Aunt Lisa

nEnE (66.4.15.129) -- Monday, November 24 2003, 10:03 pm

no title
das uh bad ass poem ma..

LinzAy (65.35.22.28) -- Tuesday, December 23 2003, 07:33 am

nEnE
thanks....

ashley (67.50.168.170) -- Saturday, December 27 2003, 02:54 pm

no title
so damn true

LinzAy (205.188.208.140) -- Sunday, December 28 2003, 08:31 am

Ashley
LOL....thanks :)

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