My mind goes insane when I think about us
I can’t figure out what it is that makes me love you so much
You say your being faithful, that there is no one else
But I have a strong gut feeling that lately you’ve been messing around
I have never had this problem with trusting someone I love
It would be so much easier if you just kept it real
Each day that passes by
The depression grows and the tears I will no longer be able to hold
I want you to tell me if I’m the person you really want
But I want you to love me for me not just because I had your son
I’m tired of all the bullshit in my life
So hurry up and let me know if you are the man that will make everything right
I’m tired of crying
I’m tired of stressing
I’m getting tired of waiting to see if you will ever make a change
I hate the bullshit
I hate the lies
I hate all the fucking people that call you to go out and play at night
Why can’t you see how bad I want you?
I don’t want to be your puppet anymore
I’m tired of you pulling me out whenever you want
But the one thing that hurts the most is when I see you neglecting your son
Don’t you know, the first five years of his life is when he needs you the most
You blame me because he cries when you hold him sometimes
When the only person you should be blaming is yourself
You call whenever you want
You never come see him
Your story is that you don’t have a ride
Why not ask your “homies” that you kick it and smoke crystal with
I honestly don’t know how you can live your life.
How can you do him so dirty and act like you don’t give a fuck!
How can you do that to him, your blood, your creation, your son, and the most precious thing on this earth.
How can you just live your life not giving a fuck?
I don’t understand how you care so much about kicking it or helping your “homies” rather than doing all that for Sammy!
Your day will come, one day you will see it through his eyes and feel what he’s feeling, but worse!
Just remember that payback is a bitch and what goes around, comes around!
Everything your doing to Sammy will come back to you!
Then when you realize what you did to him, you’ll want to be in his life!
But you know what, by then, he might just tell you to f*ck off because he doesn’t want you there!
It’s funny how you call yourself a man but are you sure that’s what you really are!
Now that I think about it, I don’t want you no more.
How can you love me if you can’t even love your own son!

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