Never Again by Moonlight

I am thrown into darkness again.
You have destroyed my soul
There is no light
There is nothing to live for without you
Im always in the dark.
You have brought me to my knees
With no remorse you walked out the door.
What can i say?
Words have escaped me...
Like your love they too have left me
You told me you loved me!
How can u just walk out for some one else.
"oh im love some one else"
I cant take it anymore its eating me inside.
I act like things dont bother me.
Inside they drive me crazy.
Voices back again.
I thought they were gone forever.
They cloud my mind.
They shroud everything only showing dark.
Why must they torment me like this.
Its too late to seek help.
I am beyond help,
i am slowly drowning in my sorrow.
I used to have hope
But you took it from me.
You took everything that i ever cherished.
You have ruined love for me.
I cant stand it
I am blind.
I dream of suicide.
I want to die.
When i tryed a knife i found it too hard.
The windmill didnt work i only landed with a bruise.
Then the today came,
The pain swept over me.
The razors dont help anymore.
ITs too much!!!
I cant breathe.
I race to the medice cabinet.
Open the lock to death.
I sink to the floor sobbing.
Popping pill after pill.
My stomach began aching.
I rushed to my room.
ANd began writing the last letter,
to you....
"Shea... I loved you, how could you do this to me.
I am lying here on my bed writing this.
These are my last living minutes.
I wanted you to know that i dont want,
You to feel bad for this you caused it,
but if u didnt care then, then u shouldnt care now
The room is spinning now.
I hope your happy, you trapped me here.
Also to my parents,
Dad i hope you burn in hell for the shit,
that you put me and mom in.
Mom I love you with all my heart.
Never stop believing.
Never lose sight of your heart."
Then i passed out thinking about all my friends.
Then it hit me.
All my friends im leaving behind.
But the pain i felt,
I shall feel never again

People This is the actual account of what recently happened to me. I wrote this so that you guys know i want you to learn from me. Once i realized i was leaving my friends i wanted to live ever so badly. Please dont let go of your hope. NEver lose sight of yourself. And if ever you feel like this seek help immediatly. I was lucky enough to survive. Dont stop believing god has a plan for all of us. Do not take fate into your own hands.

Clive (63.184.0.207) -- Sunday, December 28 2003, 05:01 am

Rich in friends
No one has a right to make you feel this way,
Love can take over all your sences,
It has the power to make blind,
you see only what is your hope,
you can always talk
I'll be one of many who'll listen

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