My Little Sister Devin by Ryan

my friends tell me they care
i know they care
but im not sure if i care enough about anything to stop
i just dont want devin to grow up 1 brother short
i feel the need to kill myself but then i stop and think of her
i see her smile when i feel like cutting and it makes me stop
as i put the blade to my wrist i see her little smile in my head
makes me think wow i have a amazing sister
and if i die i wont be there to experence her grow up
as i start to tear i see that beautiful smile
once she is old enough to understand how many times shes saved me
i will repay her with my life i will let her read this poem and see what she says
i would have never thought i beautiful little girl would save me from killin myself
i would and will do anything for her even if it means going to jail
i sometimes wonder if she thinks what i think
i can see into her beautiful eyes
how much she loves me even though shes only 19 months old

LinzAy (205.188.208.42) -- Wednesday, February 26 2003, 10:27 am

......
Thoughts of suicide had crossed my mind a while back, although i knew in my heart i would never be able to do anything like to myself, because of my love for my family and my love for god. But when i was depressed enough to think something like that the first face that popped into my head was my lil brothers....he's 4. I couldnt imagine leaving him that way, just giving up on what i could experience with him. There were also times that i wanted to just leave home and not come back for a while...but then again i saw his face and didnt want to miss the new things he would learn to do. And now i have a pretty hard choice to make and the only thing i see is his face.
Awesome hard heart hitting poem!!

lasohnda harris (12.229.199.53) -- Thursday, February 27 2003, 02:35 am

family loves you
I once thought about suicide but everytime i tried to do i felt selfish when ithought about my family who loves me and how they would hurt if i was no longer here

ryan eason (24.153.177.14) -- Thursday, February 27 2003, 11:12 pm

thank you i used to cut as u would know if u read my other peom "cut" but i stopped thinking of her

ryan (24.153.177.14) -- Thursday, February 27 2003, 11:15 pm

thanks agian it makes my day to come home and read what people have wrote about my peoms makes me smile alot thank u so much

Crazy 1 (24.72.92.94) -- Sunday, March 30 2003, 05:00 am

Very smart
That was a sweet poem from the heart. Your little sister is trulyblessed to have a brother who cares about her like you do. Now I know why God blesses us with family members....she has a special place in your life and I can tell that you will have a very special place in hers as well.....

Leah06 (12.232.5.189) -- Saturday, April 12 2003, 11:21 pm

*tears*
How toattaly cute!!!!I love this one!Keep it up!

amanda (66.141.49.237) -- Friday, June 6 2003, 05:09 pm

*how cute*
oh my god ryan you really out did you self on this one i know it means alot to you and im sure devin would love to read this. i also think that she will think the same as you do because i know she loves you too.

brandi (64.12.96.76) -- Sunday, June 8 2003, 12:30 am

wow
that is one of the sweetest things i've ever heard. this poem brought tears to my eyes. its so cute. its so sweet that you care so much about your little sister.

Kayla (151.213.90.168) -- Monday, June 30 2003, 03:22 am

feels the same
I feel the same way i have a brother thats 11 month old i want to die and when i look at him i just cant because if i do he would ask mommy where is my sissy and she would say im sorry sweety she is gone. I dont want to hurt my brother never.

Milinda (152.163.252.35) -- Wednesday, July 23 2003, 08:14 am

same
My brother is 17 years old, i am the youngs one out of my family. but when i wanna do sumthing to hurt me or try i always think my big brother and what he does for me....Ryan ur good...

donna (152.163.252.131) -- Monday, February 2 2004, 04:56 am

sweet
i think that was cute he really think about his sister alot her little smile yes you do you need to think her for saveing your life

corey (24.56.203.70) -- Saturday, February 14 2004, 09:10 pm

why
whay do you cut your selfe i need to no

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