Whom will they accept, whom will they like?
The person in the mirror and myself aren’t alike
Everyone knows this stranger I see lying in the glass
But him and I were never a part of the same class

The days go by like weeks, and the weeks like years
There’s no real way to describe the pain inside my tears
Anymore I stand in front of the mirror for hours on end
Trying to figure out who I see…no longer can I pretend

They say I’m a great guy; they’ll always be by my side
They don’t know so many emotions ago the real me died
They love this man in the glass; but I’m not even sure who he is
One thing I know, these aren’t my friends instead they’re friends of his

It’s been so long, every day I forget more about the real me
I wish I could just forget about him and my stupid spree
It was fun at first being someone that everyone cared for
But now showing people the real me is a thought I abhor

It’s so much harder than it seems erasing the fictitious me
Pretending for so many years, with everyone else I start to agree
Maybe this is really who I am, not just a fictitious shell
Any more it seems my retentiveness has gone straight to hell

Today I went to look in the mirror but no one was there
It was so strange I saw no reflection…nothing but air
I stare at the mirror, seeing nothing but my creation
Forever will I be locked inside my lifeless desolation
I’ll never gain control, I’ve hidden the real me for so long…
I no longer know who I am even the distant memory’s gone

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