You know for a time, I was welcomed here
I took some time off to get my head clear
People sent me notes, all of the time
Asking for favors, none of which, mine
I helped so many, but then they left me
Again I was used, but I guarantee
It won't fly again, I hate all of them
I mean it is me that they all condemn

Some said it'd be different, I hear it all the time
Then they get pissed off, and act like I'm slime
When I don't spill it all, and keep it inside
Forgive me everyone, I have much to hide
That I won't let out, then they all leave too
They claim that they won't, but I know it's true
It happened fifty times, counting four from here
So why get hurt more, I'd rather disappear

There were three from here, that asked me to write
Each time they saw me, every single night
They thought I wrote well, and they wanted aid
Drafting their thoughts, while I further fade
One of them lied, and took my poem for his
He changed a few words, it doesn't take a wiz
To notice he stole it, before my very eyes
Another used me there, it wasn't a surprise

The second gave a script, about his hard life
And wanted me to, draft out his strife
I did about four, and regretted it
Because in my eyes, they turned out like shit
He claimed to kill himself, but lived the next day
I blocked him from my list, liars go away
The third is still my friend, at least I think so
We don't talk much now, so I just don't know

I won't mention names, but there's some girls here
That thought they liked me, and said they were sincere
The first said she cared, in the first email
Then made up stories, to each small detail
I proved most of them false, she said I was ugly
You think I give a f*ck, if you now hate me?
I blocked you from my list, and I do not care
So don't cry to me, with more false despair

The second one wished, I could be with her
And so I asked just, how can she be sure?
She's never met me, she'd see me with hate
It's all I have left, why go on a date?
She continued on, for a couple weeks
She described her friends as a bunch of geeks
She asked me to swear, all my loyalty
I just told her that, she doesn't know me

She too turned away, I'm a waste of time
Not being with her, seems to be a crime
I asked her if, she hated me then
She lied and said no, another lied again
Just how do I know? I see her on the net
She doesn't speak to me, she'd rather forget
She too said she'd stay, just give her a chance
I knew she would leave, from my very first glance

I give props to those that still stick by me
Mr. Vann, Ryan, Stacey, and Ashley
Becky, Ash, and I won't forget Terrie
There's a couple more, such as LinzAy
They offered two cents, in my time of need
While everybody else, wants to see me bleed
So to the ones I trusted, then backstabbed my skin
I say f*ck you all, I'll never trust again

------- Author's Notes -------

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