I'll Never Belong
13 November, 2003
Author: Seizure
I want to close my eyes, and never wake again
I want to take a razor blade and push it in my skin
I never want to dream, I never want to love
I never want to hurt, I will not rise above
I wish I could just fade, as quickly as I came
So much happened to me, I'll never be the same
I never want to eat, I never want to talk
I only want to be the one that is outlined in chalk
What more must I give? What more can I do?
People always claim, they know what I've been through
No one in the world, has seen what I've seen
No one in the world, knows just what I mean
I had to grow too fast, faster than my peers
Or I would have died, and not lived all these years
I wish to god my fate, expired before now
I've had all the hurt, my brain will allow
Holidays approach, the nights are growing cold
I should be happy, or so I've been told
I should be with friends, I should be with family
I look them in the eye, and say I too agree
But while they go home, I see I have no one
They're with their parents, I am with a gun
I toss the idea, around for just so long
I look out the window, I will not belong
People have their friends, people have their family
People have their pets, I only have me
Thanksgiving they will feast, I'll have Easy Mac
I'll watch out the window, as life fades to black
Christmas night they will snuggle by the fire
I will be alone, praying to expire
It hurts so much to say, I'll never be strong
Enough to change a thing, I'll never belong
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Comments on this poem/writing:
| Ash (65.73.59.233) -- Friday, November 14 2003, 08:50 pm Oh seiz...I was so happy to c that u had posted some new poems. As always, I loved this one. The things I feel after your poems are amazing. Your emotions just spill out from the page, a quality thats so rare. |
| Seizure (65.80.81.6) -- Saturday, November 22 2003, 11:04 pm You are too kind. You sure that's not an exaggeration? j/k. Thanks for the comment. It was well received. |
| Leah06 (24.5.241.141) -- Monday, November 24 2003, 04:58 am what do you want to belong to? Dreamers is your family. we want to be your family! Great poem! Leah Kendall |
| Ash (65.73.59.237) -- Monday, November 24 2003, 10:08 pm No i'm not always kind. And no i'm not joking. I love your work seiz, plain and simple. |
| leah (204.112.162.3) -- Saturday, January 3 2004, 11:53 am I really liked this poem you did a great job....I sometimes feel like I'll never belong or fit in with what the rest of the world has going on,,,, |
| KJP (67.112.79.23) -- Saturday, January 31 2004, 09:10 am I have read a lot of your poems and from what I have read your right we will never know what you have gone through. We all haven't experienced what you have gone through but we have experienced our out problems and they are all different. Trust me I have one big problem that makes many smaller problems. Also from what I see you do have friends. The ones that take the time to read your poems and write down nice comments for you. |
| ... (199.126.238.142) -- Sunday, February 1 2004, 01:39 am Its up to you to belong and look around at how blessed you are in life right now |
| Holly A. Badolato (12.34.167.208) -- Monday, February 2 2004, 03:59 am I know exactly how you feel...people are always telling me that they know what im going through and they all try to help but they dont...you'll know what im talking about if you read my poems...their all true and i cant tell my friends that because they dont have any idea what i went through...i always feel like i dont belong i mean i am in all kinds of school activities and i am friends will almost all 200 highschoolers but its not the same as belonging to a group and you dont have to be in somekind of sport or something...i hope you understand what im saying because i think i confused myself...well i love your poem..keep em coming |
| Ryan M Holden (132.9.127.6) -- Sunday, February 22 2004, 11:47 pm very well written, it flows and ryhmes very well, while at the same time expresing your emotions so well without a pause or break. Wonderful job. |
| gabe (65.141.14.16) -- Sunday, March 7 2004, 02:52 am whoa ,its so great i love it i felt so emotional after i read it |
| barb (209.112.22.188) -- Sunday, March 7 2004, 07:03 pm I'm sorry seisure for what you've gone through, but I get upset when you say nobody knows what you've been through we all have things that weren't nice to go through, like child molestation , reform school, rape but we learned to live with it as part of live experiences. I just wish you would see there is good out there if you look. your writing is so passionate and good.use it for the good you see. yep I'm back:) |
| Meridian (152.163.252.227) -- Tuesday, March 9 2004, 06:07 pm You're right; I never knew what you went through, but don't commit suicide Seizure. You are loved by many! |
| Jinx (66.157.82.17) -- Thursday, April 1 2004, 12:50 am I can't say i know exactly what you are going through i just can say this, my life seems to be like th poem. Everyone tells me i need to be with family, and friends, but what famliy and what friends. I have no one but me. So I have an idea about what you might be feeling. |
| Kami (4.240.36.15) -- Thursday, January 5 2006, 04:07 am I will like I said injoy your writings and I don't think I will ever be let down by them. |
| Yahaira (172.16.154.5) -- Monday, June 11 2007, 07:50 pm Cant say much! your poems said it all. Can't believe someone out there been through the same thing i go through everyday.God's plan for me wasn't that! ,Guess what you not alone baby, God is always with you and baby trust me i do understand cause i was once in your shoes. Please while you have life, everything is possible. |
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