Start Again
4 October, 2003
Author: Seizure
Not everyone can ever go and feel the way I do
Knowing that my path to grace is just so far overdue
I want to see the light and I just want to see the gates
What will be up there please just tell me what awaits
Will I have some loved ones that will also love me back
Or will I just be alone and fade further to black?
I really gotta know I guess there is one way to see
I gotta leave this hell and hope there is a guarantee
That I can rejoin all of them and live a happy life
And reach up into my back and take out this knife
I want to go ahead I want to go and see it now
I want to live my life as long as time allows
In total happiness I hope I finally made it there
I want to leave this hell, a life that is unfair
I look at myself now and see the monster I have been
It's time to start all over and show just what is within
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Comments on this poem/writing:
| Ben (67.122.251.149) -- Saturday, October 11 2003, 09:44 am Seizure, I like this writing, and I can relate to it. It has contained in it questions I wanted answers to as I grew in age and experience. I also sense from it the dawning of a hope that is common among human hearts. And, if I'm not wrong here, the desire to put the past behind and turn some energy toward making the future better. We all must contend with our own nature (and the natures of others) and I get the feeling that you're gearing up to do just that, unless I'm "reading too much" into this. I just want to let you know that part of me deep inside smiled as I read this! That's why my two cents worth turned into a dime, I guess. Thanks! ***Ben |
| Seizure (68.19.104.249) -- Monday, October 13 2003, 05:28 pm I appreciated the comment... but I fear you are the only one that will ever read this one, or the other two I submitted the same day. When they posted, they were way too far down the list. No one is looking at them sadly. What a waste. Thanks again though Ben. I enjoyed your "analysis" of the writing. |
| Pamela (66.38.146.7) -- Monday, October 13 2003, 05:44 pm Seizure, posting your poems is not a waste, but there are so many to read lately! You just have to give it some time - and, about the poem - awesome to hear you say (or rather, write) the words "I want to go ahead and see it now, I want to live my life as long as time allows....." In order to start again, the first key is extreme courage, so if you have had enough courage to write about it, then you know you have enough courage to attempt a new life for yourself. Anyways, sorry for rambling! Just didn't want you thinking that your poems are overlooked. I often have read and didn't take time to comment. I'll change that from now on :O) |
| Terrie* (65.148.214.218) -- Monday, October 13 2003, 08:44 pm seizure, i agree w/Pam. your poetry is not a waste..i always read what is submitted...i always enjoy reading your poetry.you speak trueth they are very deep...i guess i should comment, i read all your three postings on my lunch break along w/the other postings from other poets and sadly i did not acknowledge that i was there at dreamers reality..that is my fault....you poetry has a lot of knowledge ...i will comment...i promise even if it is a short comment ok? but never again think that it is a waste.......your poems are very touching...i have been one of your fans since Ben directed me to this sight... keep posting sweetie. |
| Seizure (68.19.104.249) -- Tuesday, October 14 2003, 12:17 am In no way am I trying to do an attention plea for people to comment on my work. I'm just a little frustrated that they were so far down the list that most of the people that actually look for my work never even saw it. How do I know? I talk to several people from this site on Instant Messenger and email and most that I talked to would say something like, "New poems?" Or "Are you going to post any poems sometime this year?" It's not the fact you guys aren't commenting on it. It's the fact people can't read what they can't see, which is what I submit them for. I write the poetry for myself, but after it's written, I only submit it for others to see... it is a total waste if it never gets to the eyes of the people that actually want to see it. Hopefully that made a little more sense there. |
| Terrie* (65.148.210.79) -- Tuesday, October 14 2003, 06:23 am Seiz, this might help your friends get straight access to your postings..have them go straight to " view other peoples poems" it is the quickest access to view all of your poems why? well you know how quickly new poetry gets posted at this sight sometimes ones poetry will be located at the top and in order to make room for new postings the updated ones are added towards the top and that is how our postings end up at the bottom, nothing else......anyways thats what i do when i want to read someones latest posting i go straight to the source, i speak in truth.....you have a gift for it...well sweetie i hope this helpful.... |
| Ash (65.73.59.236) -- Tuesday, October 14 2003, 08:26 pm Seiz this poem is hopeful, which is a change for you but I like how you can write from so many emotions. It really is wonderful. I especially like the knife in the back part, that is exactly how I am feeling right now. And ya know I could never stop reading your work. They are never wastes. |
| Martin Vann (65.57.58.55) -- Tuesday, October 14 2003, 09:01 pm Seiz; Not bad for an old man of 21, I believe, I have been where you are and let say, its but a starting point. this trail you blaze, is new for you, I hope you continue along this road. Having read your mini-biography via your peoms and having even contributed to your poems, I see a new man. I see a new courage, I see you, considering the possibility of taking, a new stand. Realizing, you don't need a helping hand, with all that youhave been through, yet, you got it, if, you ever ned it, my friend. By the way, your work is never far, down the list, we know you, and we will find you. You are at the top of many lists, some or bad, but, this one is good. With admiration, Martin V |
| Keila (195.93.34.10) -- Saturday, October 18 2003, 05:01 pm hey, seizure awesome poem....really great. I've lost your screen name thingy....I got a new one. Its cobainsbrains2 |
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