Seizure
12 May, 2003
Author: Seizure
How much time is left? How long till I die?
I have all the hurt, but lack the tears to cry
I sit all alone, almost every day
Why can't alcohol, wash my pain away?
Routine doesn't change, life's not interesting
I feel so weak, I feel like a king
But I have no crown, and I have no throne
There is not a soul, I am all alone
I just keep falling, deeper than before
I gave all I could, why care anymore?
Life will lift you up, just to pull you down
Why try to beat life? It wants me to drown
Don't encourage me, I am nothing now
I want to be happy, but I don't know how
So just let me fade, just leave me to die
I am at the end, I won't see July
I won't kill myself, but my heart is weak
It just gets weaker, each second I speak
I've been stabbed and shot, I've been hit by cars
I have been abused, the proof is in the scars
I've been electrocuted, I lived through that too
I've been set on fire, god damn I'm overdue
In this game of life, I hope I'm finally done
I can't believe that I, lived to twenty one
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Comments on this poem/writing:
| Leah06 (12.232.5.189) -- Thursday, May 15 2003, 04:56 am I seriously think that I am your number one fan! This is beyond the limit! It is so true to who you are and what has happened to you through thease 21 years. It shows great courage to write and post somthing as personal and wonderful as this. Great Job! I love it! Leah |
| Ghost (198.81.26.14) -- Thursday, May 15 2003, 08:28 pm This is an awesome poem. It almost made me get teary eyed near the end. I love that you would write about something to personal to you. I'm sorry for all that you've gone through and all that you are still going through. I hope you can overcome everything. Great writing though. I love it also. |
| LinzAy (64.12.96.238) -- Thursday, May 15 2003, 11:05 pm Hey Seiz! You already know i like this one a lot and that i think it's great:D Looks like others agree and understand..... |
| Brandi (152.163.252.69) -- Monday, May 19 2003, 03:22 am how could you write something so personal? i thought about writing a poem about myself but i was afraid that if people judged it or criticized i would would hurt. it would be like theyre judging me and i couldnt handle that. if they said they hated my poem it would be like they hated me. how did u come up w/ the courage? great poem |
| Seizure (67.34.138.90) -- Monday, May 19 2003, 08:24 am Leah06, I have no doubt you are one of my biggest fans... I noticed you've read just about, if not all, of my work. I appreciate it a lot :). Ghost, thanks for the kind words. LinzAy, yeah, I know you liked it already. Thanks for the props. Brandi, want to know where the courage comes from to write about something so personal? It's simple... I don't care what others think of me. Friends, yes... but I already know what they think of me. It's this simple.. if someone is going to hate me, I want them to hate me for the right reasons. |
| Stacey (68.82.126.206) -- Monday, May 19 2003, 11:05 pm I love this one Seiz, great job |
| Capricorn (62.30.217.106) -- Tuesday, May 20 2003, 12:09 pm An honest and courageous write. You have certainly opened up your soul and shown the wounds and scars, Seizure. I wish you well in your life! Great poem! |
| Ash (24.97.207.68) -- Friday, May 23 2003, 08:27 pm I know i don't know all that has happened to you in your life but i give you credit for waking up everyday and facing life for the past 21 years. Your poems are touching and truthful,a rarity. |
| Seizure (216.47.215.144) -- Saturday, July 5 2003, 10:59 am Thanks for the comment there Stacey. It's always nice to see your approval. Capricorn, it would be nice if i made it well into my life, but it's not looking too likely as of late. I'm getting some heart issues that don't feel like going away. Hopefully not too much longer :) Ash, simply reading my work gives a good idea of what all happened in my life... granted not all of it.. but a good portion... i'm grateful people like you give me encouragement to keep doing my thing. |
| Monica Alafa (170.76.45.143) -- Thursday, July 10 2003, 07:10 am This is great! It made me lean back in my chair and think i'm not the only one. I totally know what ur feelin', well in my own way, of course. I have read all your poems and i love them. There just like mine, from the heart. Once again, well done. |
| Seizure (67.34.132.63) -- Wednesday, July 16 2003, 02:07 pm i appreciate the comment monica. |
| MartinV (171.75.220.159) -- Wednesday, July 30 2003, 09:37 pm I won't fight to be your number one fan, don't need to. Your work is a challenge to those who want to write, which is a compliment to you. Your work is professional, reaches into the soul, brings out the heart, we sometimes, hide away. But no, not you, having nothing else to lose, you cut loose, with power and precise revelation of what we feel, yet, do not, know how to say. We do not have your words, that is obvious, but we know how to feel, thanks, to you! MartinV |
| Crimson Angel (12.249.164.87) -- Friday, August 8 2003, 03:14 pm Heh, well you've nearly died more than I have...which is quite unusal, lol. Anyway, I know what it's like, to have had enough, and want it all to end...That's how I've been thinking alot, and I can really relate to what you're saying in your poems, though just not in the same category. But, all the same, neat work, and keep on writin'. Your Fan, CA. :-) |
| Scorpio (67.167.17.97) -- Monday, May 23 2005, 02:50 am I've been looking over your work, and you are one hell of a writer! As much emotion you put into each piece, it's just- Wow. And as sorry as I am for everything that's ever happened to you, I believe that in a sense, it was for the best. I mean, look at this great talent you have. You can put your emotion so deeply into a few stanzas and it's like everyone loves it. Sometimes, it takes experience of pain (Emotional and physical) to realize your true talents. I love all your work and hope to see much more. (: |
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