Family Without Me
16 July, 2002
Author: Seizure
Everybody dreams, of happier times
They want to go back, I do too sometimes
To a life of bliss, playing with my toys
Before my father said, I couldn't make a noise
I just had to play, with noises in my mind
Each time he was home, he'd rip my behind
With telephone cord, or a wooden bat
It just depended, which room he was at
He'd get carried away, and beat up my back
He never would stop, until my bones would crack
Then there is my brother, he was my best friend
We swore to each other, together till the end
After my family, kicked me on the street
He sold all my things, I just felt defeat
I don't know why he, turned to backstab me
Even my own blood, just turned down my plea
To still be together, regardless of this life
It's like he marked the vein, then handed me the knife
All this shit at once, I did not deserve
I just lost my strength, nothing's in reserve
My sister was a bitch, she never liked me
When I was smaller, she'd hit me with her knee
Just because she could, I couldn't fight back
I was just too small, to fend off attack
My mom wished the best, for me when I was small
She would always be there, to catch me if I'd fall
But then she found out, I was Atheist
And apparently, that just made her pissed
So she had no problem, turning me away
This was all the worst, price that I could pay
My life was in shambles, my girlfriend took me in
Then on Christmas Eve, she told me with a grin
That she met another, far better than me
And that I should just, let them both be free
I'm tossed out again, sleeping in the cold
God if you are there, don't make me grow old
If you have a heart, I'm just not that strong
Enough to endure, much more going wrong
Now I wish they'd call, I sleep by the phone
But I know that I, never can go home
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Comments on this poem/writing:
| B.R.H. (63.75.26.178) -- Saturday, July 20 2002, 08:41 pm Awesome, powerful, outstanding poem. It is hard hitting and yet sad and surviving at the same time. It's a shame life has to be like this. Know that you can't choose your birth family. But a family of friends can be very enriching. Keep stiving you will make it :) |
| Seizure (67.34.133.73) -- Saturday, July 20 2002, 10:40 pm Thanks for the encouraging words. |
| Ruth Annesley (203.59.10.1) -- Thursday, July 25 2002, 10:37 am Im still, after all this time amazed and encouraged by your talent of writing poetry. It was so powerful it took me seconds to cry. Wonderful work. Let out those emotions. Its your turn to SHINE. Take care. Love Ruth xoxox |
| Seizure (67.34.140.31) -- Sunday, July 28 2002, 07:41 pm Thanks for the comment. I'm glad you enjoyed the poem... can we expect any new RUTH ANNESLEY poems anytime soon? |
| Ruth Annesley (203.59.10.1) -- Tuesday, July 30 2002, 06:34 am Hey Seizure, Im still searching for that inspiration or whatever it is that makes me tick when i write. Every few days i sit down especially to write but nothing has come up yet. the best so far is one verse. So hopefully yes soon there will be!! Im working on it. Keep an eye out! Take care Love Ruth xoxoxox |
| barb (216.129.37.250) -- Tuesday, August 13 2002, 02:57 pm guess before I open my big mouth I should of read some more. Again I'm sorry,friends? |
| barb (216.129.37.250) -- Tuesday, August 13 2002, 03:02 pm I have my believes and you have yours don't ever change.I had no right to be dissappointed just because you didn't think the way I do. Bear with me Seizure I'm still learning |
| Seizure (67.34.128.54) -- Monday, August 19 2002, 01:16 am Just curious, but why would reading this poem affect your opinion any different that you had a couple weeks ago? Don't say you had no right to be disappointed. It's not the fact you were disappointed with me; it's the fact you publically showed your disapproval in a seemingly attacking manner. I don't take lightly to personal attacks and saw that as no different. You are entitled to your opinion, but next time you don't agree with something a poet, or anyone says, I would either word it differently, or let them know in private. It is a very different thing to comment on a poem saying, "I'm disappointed that through the course of the poem you grew more and more negative, etc." as opposed to, "I'm just disappointed in you, people live a lot harder than we do." You know? I mean, how exactly would you know how I live from day to day? It's just that type thing. I'll overlook it if you do. BTW, I saw your poem on judgement. It was good. |
| barb (216.129.37.250) -- Friday, August 23 2002, 12:51 am I'm sorry but I'm not educated enough to know what words I should use I just say what I feel no fancy words.I was only trying to let you know that being athiest didn't bother me it was your bitterness. |
| Roy (64.12.96.7) -- Sunday, September 29 2002, 03:12 am Run Forrest run. I put God on the side as I sleep in the snow without anyone in the cold but me. I forgave HIM as I was about to die a victim of fear. Yet I went on to see more in Vietnam as my buddies fell taking their last breath by heartless leadership. I had to forgive dad and sisters three I felt to survive |
| Baby gurl (216.135.36.231) -- Friday, October 18 2002, 07:24 pm Im sorry about the things that you have went through in your life. I couldn't imagine being kicked out on the streets and having my family turn there back on me. You have a lot of talent, so keep up the good work. |
| smiley (152.163.188.2) -- Monday, October 21 2002, 10:54 pm I can relate--really I'd rather not |
| Worm (64.12.96.7) -- Friday, November 1 2002, 03:45 am I liked this one a lot. In the begining about your dad beating you and telling you to make no noise, that's my dad. He would beat on me and my brother, and he smack me repeatedly if I mad a sound while i was playing with my toys. I hated him. This poem is awesome, it has so much meaning, I wish I could write like you. -Ashley- |
| Capricorn (62.30.192.1) -- Friday, November 1 2002, 03:02 pm I feel truly moved by your poem - and your life.What a talent to put all those thoughts into words the way you have. I still have tears in my eyes! |
| Ashley (24.143.29.45) -- Friday, November 29 2002, 06:11 pm I really like your poems. Keep on writing... |
| Donna (68.48.86.160) -- Monday, December 9 2002, 03:51 am I read a lot of ur poems and they've touched me,I hope that things will get better for you i really do,i wish i could write like you!!Great Poems!Keep writing... |
| Seizure (65.164.72.2) -- Wednesday, December 11 2002, 02:32 am I really appreciate the comments Worm, Cap, Ashley, and Donna. I'm really glad the writings I've submitted here has done their job of expressing emotions. |
| Bernadette (205.188.209.75) -- Monday, December 30 2002, 11:47 am How are you doing,,,,please put your energies in several support groups and create a life with postive people surrounding you, when you least care,, your family will come around, but don't stop suceeding in the life you created for yourself,,, I,m building my own world too! |
| Shana (152.163.205.82) -- Tuesday, February 4 2003, 11:47 pm hey your poem touched me a lot and made me think about things in a different way...your poem is very emotional someone can really learn a lot just by reading it...keep writtingyour good at it...maybe someday you'll see my work posted |
| HONEYBENCH (61.9.20.82) -- Friday, February 14 2003, 05:18 am Hey Seizure!This was my first time to read one of your thousand poems,right?It really touched my heart though I haven't experience beating w/ my dad or any of my family! But at least u gave me idea on how to survive when those troubles comes to my life like this!(pls. GOD don't allow this to happen to me.'coz i can't take it!) Your poem is very emotional. I Hope I could write like you!Keep writing Great Poems!!! |
| Seizure (65.164.72.2) -- Friday, February 14 2003, 05:00 pm Glad you both liked it. Thanks for the kind words. |
| Leah (12.232.5.189) -- Wednesday, March 19 2003, 02:49 am Well this poem will certanly change the minds of those who badmothed you when you wrote More To God! Great poem Seizure. |
| Seizure (68.19.8.125) -- Wednesday, March 19 2003, 05:47 am Yeah, I caused quite the upheaval with More to God didn't I? And the funny thing to me is the fact that when I was badmouthed for it, that was all it was about. Being badmouthed for religious beliefs... and it happend on a poem about that... sorry... just found it funny myself. |
| Cody Barker (67.26.101.168) -- Monday, October 27 2003, 04:53 am Hello seizure, my name is cody barker i hav eposte don this site only once. I post under the name moonlight. I wondered if u all would read the poem, its called "The Beauty and The Beast" I wish to hear all u guys opions on it. But anyways if have of what u write about is true to your life then i am very sorry, I know what its like to grow havea hard life, my mother died when i was 14 and my dad was an abusive alchoholic. I have grown up in a foster home ever since then as my father is uncapable of raising me. I am currently a ward of the state, i have been writing my poetry since i was 12 but i have hit it write until my last Beauty and the Beast which is being published in a book. I sugguest that u submit ur poems to a major contest as they often lead to publications and sponsoships |
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