Exit Life by Seizure

It's happening again, why must it be me?
The chills, the desire, as steady as the sea
My windpipe is closing, tears run from my eyes
I try to resist, and hope temptation dies
But it gets much worse, it will never ease
I just started yelling, as I fell upon my knees
I pulled out the box, that is long and slender
To think it once caused, just so much splendor

I take out the band, and make it round my arm
Then I take the needle, and make it cause me harm
It entered the hole, used many times before
I figured why not? Why not just one more?
I took a deep breath, then released the band
But this time was different, I can't feel my hand
The hole turned dark black, color seemed to spread
I should feel good, but I hurt instead

Most of my arm was black, what the hell went wrong?
The pain was tremendous, minutes took too long
I must stop this pain, I walked a couple blocks
But I ended up, right back at the box
Again it opened, again I round my arm
I am so strung out, this drug lost its charm
The needle goes in, my head starts to throb
Sounds seem underwater, I can't turn the knob

Now I am fading, in and out a lot
Doors close down the hall, each sounds like a shot
I take all my needles, and tear them apart
I'll relive my life, again at its start
Now it is all good, because I've changed my ways
I don't feel right, I'm still in a daze
I can't take the pain, it's sharp as a knife
It seems it's my time, my time to exit life

babygurl (216.135.36.186) -- Saturday, October 19 2002, 02:34 am

don't even know
I don't even know what to say. I wish that I could write poems like you and word them to sound so good and tell a story at the same time. You are truly talented. Keep writing great poems.

Coma (205.188.209.11) -- Saturday, February 1 2003, 01:28 am

You are good!
Seizure you are by far the best, your the only author that I read there poems. I wish I could write like you. Keep up the good work.

Seizure (216.47.215.144) -- Saturday, February 1 2003, 09:07 am

thanks...
I appreciate the kind words from both of you. I'm really glad you enjoyed my work.

Leah (12.232.5.189) -- Wednesday, March 12 2003, 03:40 am

scared and confused
I am scared because i dont ever want you to end your life. But yet i am confused, i am hoping you are going to tell me no but it is still a 50/50 chance, Do your poems come from your own experiences>? If they do i am again very scared. Yet again great poem!

*Ashley (66.53.143.18) -- Thursday, October 16 2003, 02:11 am

Whoa
I read many of your poems. And they are all great. You have tremendous talent for poetry. Keep it up!

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