My World by Seizure

So much happens before me, but I do not care
It's seems I've reached the limit, of what I can bear
Nothing seems to scare me, I feel like I'm dead
I stand in the shower, water rounds my head
I don't blink my eyes, I stare at the wall
Walls begin to steam up, what happened to them all?
They don't know what it's like, hating your own reflection
Knowing what you've been through, and losing direction

Now I'm desentisized, I don't feel a thing
I don't even know, what I'm pondering
My eyes don't look away, they always look straight
I stand here alone, I know it is my fate
Thrown out by my parents, beaten and abused
Lost even my dignity, but I still get used
It was my best friend, that always stood by me
Until he got his shotgun, and set his own soul free

Another flipped her car, and lost her chance at life
She was hooked to life support, I'm stuck with constant strife
My grandpa and my dog, also met their fate
Way before their time, from god's vengful hate
He took them all from me, I am so alone
No one left in my life, I don't need a phone
No one now can hurt me, no pain can be hurled
I'm already dead, to this hateful world

Barbara (216.129.37.250) -- Sunday, August 11 2002, 02:40 am

Hope
read this and know how you feel. when I was young my parents couldn't look after us so we went to childrens aid till somebody would take all 3 of us.At 15 I thought I finally met someone who really liked me a year later he died in a car accident. then 2 years later met my husband. at 19 was married,at 21 had my first child, at 26 had my second,at 36 divorced, at 47 had a brain tumor operation but everything that has happened gave me strength now I am disabled physically but mentally I write poems now like you and I'm happier now than ever before,have time now to pay attention to things. To busy working before to appreciate things hings happen for a reason , believe that ok. Barb

Seizure (68.154.29.46) -- Sunday, August 11 2002, 06:58 pm

sorry to hear it
Sorry to see your life was as bad as it was. I'm glad you managed to find some good out of the whole experience though.

babygurl (216.135.36.235) -- Saturday, October 19 2002, 03:01 am

sorry
sorry to hear about your loses. hang in there man.......never give up hope

Leah (12.232.5.189) -- Monday, March 24 2003, 02:41 am

JEEZZZ
My life asent been that bad. Probly because i couldent live trough it all like you have. I am glad you did. Keep holding on!Good poem.

Ashley R. (66.52.65.13) -- Monday, November 3 2003, 12:41 am

no title
Seizure, this is a great poem! I am sorry that you had to go thru all that. But it seems like you're better now, at least i hope so!

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