Perfect Place by Seizure

My entire life, I've heard of a place
Where no pain exists, where we're all one race
No one hurts another, no one will grow old
It just sounds so perfect, from stories I've been told
I really want to go there, I want to believe it's true
I want to do no wrong, and live my life anew
Will it ever happen? I hope to god it will
I'm so tired of hurt, will it persue me still?
People all must hate me, why I don't know
They seem to look forward, to when I finally go

One day I'll find out, the truth behind demise
I hope with all my heart, to find a nice surprise
Life's become too hard, way too hard to bear
I have lost everything, even those with whom I share
Maybe there's a reason, I've been cursed this way
Because it's always worse, with each passing day
I looked to god before, he turned his back to me
I prayed as best I could, until blood stained my knee
He still didn't anwser, he left me in the cold
When he knew damn well, I would not grow old

He knew I would die, early in my life
When I went and found, my very first knife
I think it brought him joy, I think he laughed at me
All my fatal attempts, never set me free
I'm a total failure, I didn't get that right
I curse myself daily, before I sleep at night
I think my father knew, I wouldn't amount to shit
He tried to let me know, with every single hit
Sometimes I wish I died, before I was a teen
Then I wouldn't worry, about all that I've seen

Why better what I am, when I've lost my pride
Everything just aches, nothings left inside
There's one thing left undone, it's in it's special box
I work for just a minute, opening all the locks
I tightly grip the gun, and hold it to my head
The metal is so cold, it kills with what it's fed
I'm no longer weak, I know just what to do
Soon it'll all be over, I'll shed all that's true
I tuck away my fear, as tear rounds my face
Now it's time to learn, if there's a perfect place

Leah (204.112.162.3) -- Saturday, January 3 2004, 12:19 pm

To Seizure
I don't want to try and say oh im a chrisitan and there is a hel and a heaven and im right. I just want to comment on a line in your poem...I try and be a christian...i was brought up to believe that there is a heaven and hell...i believe that there is a god who created us to not live for ourselves but for him (not that i'm trying) but in heaven there will be ppl of all races white indian black and chinese...i don't understand the whole God thing i sometimes find it hard to believe that the Bible is true cuz its justa a book that (anyone) could have put together but its even harder for me to believe that there is no god or purpose or creator...anyway i believe that something does happen to our sould when we die and that there is a heaven...sorry if im boring you...i dont know what im talking about but i just want you to know that even ppl today who claim to have God in their lives had low low points in their lives and that there is a heaven and that you can get to it through god the father...I believe that heaven is a real place as well as hell...if your interested in what im trying to say let me know but there is a heaven out there...it just takes alot of faith and accepting Jesus in your life mind heart and thoughts to make it there......Happy new year.....

KJP (64.174.167.162) -- Tuesday, February 10 2004, 05:33 am

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yea some times I feel there can't be as good of place as heaven. I just look forward to it some times but then i would miss out on life and God made us to live life not end it.

silent bells (165.29.58.126) -- Friday, August 31 2007, 03:32 pm

true
i believe there is a heaven and a hell but that is all i really know about. i cant believe god would send poeple who want to be with him sooner than they should to hell or people who believe in different ways...

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